Meet me again - (Sarah Paulson)

NEW START

TW : Violence, Mention of Mental Illnesses, Eating-Disorder

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The nurses tied me to a gurney where I was forced to lie down.

"STOP LET ME GO !!" I was crying and screaming. "STOOOP IT HURTS IT HURTS !!"

"What hurts Gabrielle ? What hurts ? Talk to us." Demanded Dr Robbins.

"Everything !! Everything hurts !!" I screamed. My nose and my throat were burning, my cheek was painful from the bandage which I had pulled violently to get my tube out. And my head was so heavy from the panic, the cries... I didn't know where was Sarah and it wasn't helping me to calm down. I was pulling on the ropes that maintained me on the gurney.

We stopped in my bedroom and the nurses sedate me again.

As I was unconscious, again, Dr Robbins took Sarah in in her office.

"Well... At this point I don't know what to do with her. She is sick, clearly, but the problem is not her eating disorder anymore." Said sternly Dr Robbins. Sarah remained silence, staring at nothing. Her head was lost in what happened in the day.

"She may still have an eating disorder, but she suffers from something else, another mental health issue I think, but I don't know yet what it is. And she obviously had a depression as well." She continued but Sarah wasn't listening.

"Ms Paulson ? Ms Paulson are you listening to me ?" She clapped her fingers at Sarah.

"Yes, yes sorry..." said Sarah, coming out of her thoughts.

"As I was saying, I need to run tests to understand what is happening in Gabrielle's mind."

"But she was okay until today, she never acted like that before." Replied Sarah, very sadly. "What could it be ?"

"I don't know and I don't want to talk too fast but maybe schizophrenia, or bipolarity. But clearly something link with emotions, happening per phase."

Sarah looked down.

"But whatever it is, it can be treated. Treatments exist and she can receive help from professionals in her disability. But above all, we need to find out what it is."

"And when we have found, she will be forced to stay in the hospital ? I think it doesn't help her right now..." Asked Sarah.

"No, that's the positive side, and the negative at the time. She will have to find someone to take care of her, full-time and it's a difficult work. But she will be able to come back at her place, with treatments." Answered Dr Robbins. A small silence filled the room and Sarah looked up at Dr Robbins, her eyes fulled of hope.

"I can do it."

"What ? No, it's really hard, you're not even part of her family." Frown Dr Robbins.

"No, I know. But I'm the only one who really cares. Her family didn't take a lot of news from her since she is hospitalized. And you saw it, they never came !"

Dr Robbins nodded. And Sarah resumed.

"I really want to help her, I want to be here for her and I think I can do it." She started smiling. "She trusts me, and I think she feels good when I'm around her. It's not selfish. I really, really want the best for Gabrielle."

Dr Robbins sighed but looked relieved at the same time.

"Well, I think that could work. You can start fill the papers right now, and we will run the tests tomorrow. When we know more about what she has, we can find the proper treatment and you will be able to take her home."

Sarah smiled and took a pen, to fill the papers for my new life.