Meet me again - (Sarah Paulson)

ESCAPE

I woke up alone in my bedroom. My head was heavy but I was able to remember everything. My sudden change of behavior, me screaming and Sarah and Dr Robbins shocked. I thought that they should be in Dr Robbins's office, talking about me, and my mental state. My bad mental state. I tried to reach the emergency button to make someone come at me, but I wouldn't be alone and it was my last chance to leave. I wondered why the nurses left me untied whereas I was violent and trying to escape. I imagined that it was my last time by myself because soon or later someone would take me to the psych ward, and they would be right, considered my previous behavior.

So I slowly stood up looking around me. No one was here and no sound was heard. I was really alone. I anyway checked behind the doors which leads to the bathroom and the corridor, and I took my bag. I filled it quickly with clothes ans stuff. I was nearly leaving when I realized that I was in a hospital gown so I changed it for a discreet jeans and a large shirt.

I brought my bag and I look again to see if there was anyone in the corridor, but it was empty so I walked through it to the elevator. I pushed the button and waited, my anxiety growing quickly. When it arrived, I got in it with another woman than I had never seen before. She greeted me and I gave her a slight smile.

We got out at the same time on the ground floor and I walked towards the reception. I nearly reached the front door when I heard someone behind me.

"Hey ! Young lady ! What do you think you're doing ?"

I looked in the direction from which the voice came and I met the gaze of a nurse. She probably noticed the tube still in my nose and realized I was a patient. I turned back to the front door as I didn't noticed what just happened. But the woman kept calling me.

"Hey ! You can't leave like that young lady !"

I kept walking with my head down until someone stopped me by grabbing my arm. It was a firm grip and as I raised my eyes I saw one of the male nurse who brought me back to my room after the violent appointment few hours before.

"I think you have nothing to do here, Gabrielle." He said trying to be stern and comforting at the same time.

"But I- I wanted to... to breath uuuuuh... outside you know..." I tried to justify myself but the nurse wasn't stupid, and I was clearly leaving because I had a big filled bag.

"Now we're going back to your room and I'll tell Dr Robbins that you're up." He answered and he started walking still firmly grabbing my arm. I thought very hard of how I could escape from this situation but I was helpless. Suddenly, just before we entered the elevator, I had an idea.

"You're hurting me, can you let go my arm ?" I said quietly.

"I'm sorry Gabrielle but I can't trust you, you tried to escape two times in a day !"

"Yes and I'm sorry but you're really hurting me right now !" I shook my arm trying to make him let go off of it. "I'll complain at Dr Robbins if you keep hurting me !" I was speaking loudly and people were starting staring at us. In reality he wasn't hurting me and even if his grip was firm, he wasn't squeezing very hard my arm but as the people were staring at us, he slowly let go off my arm. I didn't move until we stepped in the elevator and when the doors started closing, I crawled thanks to my skinny body between the closing doors. He couldn't follow me as he wasn't as skinny as me and I started running through the hospital but immediately I heard an alarm, and a voice in a microphone:

"A patient try to leave the hospital. If you see a thin girl, brown long straight hair with a tube in her nose, call immediately a nurse or a member from the personal." The voice repeated this statement three times and the alarm stopped but people were staring at each other in order to find me. I lowered my head and I ran into some restroom to hide.