Forever with you❤️

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AMBER~

"Why not? are you fine?"

"yes".

"No! you don't sound fine."

"Look Morgan I am tired and I will tell you everything when I am ready, for now, I want to be alone please understand me. I'll be fine, I always have. I will not come tomorrow".

"Just manage everything please for tomorrow only. I trust you!".

and I hung up.

I took my medicines and got ready to sleep.

Have you ever felt that you have so many people in your life but sometimes the loneliness just won't go away no matter what you do?

Breakups are hard, love is hard, and trusting is hard. Everything is hard when you are an overthinker.

But nothing breaks you that hard compared to when your parents lie to you and don't trust you.

Experiencing ignorance from your parents is the most heartbreaking thing ever. Harder than anything in this world. This isn't new to me. Many had ignored me, made me cry, and betrayed me but this! is the worst.

I should have known earlier when they were not paying attention to me. I should have visited them. I should have called them on my own. Then just maybe this would have not happened.

Just maybe they would have not made me feel like a stranger.

A tear escaped my eyes.

NO! I will not cry! I have been through a lot and I am still going through it in my life. Nothing is compared to that.

I got up from my bed and made my way towards my bathroom.

I took the first aid kit from my nondamaged hand and started changing my bandage.

This one is already soaked in blood.

That mental note which I made earlier not to cut myself was of no freaking use! I still did it! well, not entirely my fault though.

Maybe I should go to the doctor, it's heavily bleeding and I am feeling weak. I got the pierced glass out of my hand, the moment I stepped into my apartment.

It was paining so freaking much. I didn't notice this when I was in the cab as I was busy crying or I would have told the driver to go straight to the hospital.

Well, I will go in the morning! It's not like I am going to die overnight.

I placed the first aid box back in the cabinet and walked towards my bed.

I checked my phone.

15 MISSED CALLS: MOM DAD

12 MISSED CALLS: GRAMS

5 MISS CALLS: UNKNOWN

and a lot of text messages from everyone!

Oh now all of them are caring about me, who knows they could just be acting, right?

And Aaron is the unknown person I guess. why did he call me?  Didn't he had enough of insulting me in front of everyone, by hurting me?

I guess not.

I didn't even bother calling anyone back and did not even answer his text about my hand.

MOREOVER, It's his fault. If only he led those maids, clean the table the moment the glass shattered, None of this would have happened.

A- HOLE.

I just dozed off due to the heavy painkillers along with the other medicines I took to ease the pain. I don't have any medicine that works for emotional pain or I would have taken them.