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AMBER~

I am just lying here on my bed after showering and eating my happy meals. Aaron is such an egoistic person I must tell you. In the car, after he teased me about the sex education thing, I opened my happy meal consisting of a mac&cheese burger and large fries. You know the regular.

I know I said earlier that I don't share my food with anyone but don't get me wrong, we both were busy the whole day with the shopping stuff. I doubt that he even had the time to have breakfast this morning and when we reached Mc Donald he didn't order anything. He was hungry! I know! he just played it cool.

So when he was focused on driving, I opened one of the meals and unwrapped the burger and took a bite. Then I placed the burger near his lips! okay! I shoved it in his mouth so he didn't have any other option but to chew the bite and then he glared at me.

That's Normal! everyday occurrence.

When I confirmed that he chewed the bite in his mouth properly, I shoved the burger again in his mouth.

I am pretty stubborn.

So that's how he ate the whole burger and also my large fries. But nor once did he object. I know that the jerk did like the burger! after all, how can anyone not like McDonald's? The whole time he just glared at me nothing more. He didn't even try shoving my hand back. He is so damn dramatic.

But anyways if he is going to eat by glaring at me then so be it! after all, everyone should feed that little tummy at all costs.

But I doubt if his tummy is little.

Today is the best day of my life, I thought while smiling.

Suddenly I feel a bile rising in my throat.

Oh god!! Not now pls!! No!! My day was going so great pls don't do this now.

But whom am I kidding god is never on my side.

I hurriedly got up from my bed and ran towards the bathroom vomiting my guts in the toilet.

why this always happens to me?

*another vomit*

I am so sick of my life when times like these come. My day was going so great until now.

*another one*

I sat near the toilet seat, my face practically inside it. If I was not supporting myself with my hands right now, I would have already dropped it in the toilet seat completely and what a great time I have hurt my damn knee.

After 2 more vomits I rinsed my mouth and flushed all the vomit and exited the bathroom. I then took my medicines for pain relief and body weakness and of course for my heart and lay on the bed feeling lifeless.

I forgot to take my medicines in the morning due to hurry. Whenever I don't take my medicines, at the end of the day I always vomit the whole food I had eaten the whole day even if it is healthy. I feel like I need to take permission from my medicines for whatever I want to do in my damn life.

For Eating- meds, For running- meds, For breathing- meds, For sleeping- meds, For pain- meds!!

I feel like a robot!! the only difference is that it needs a battery and I need medicines to survive.

I have only 3 months left to find a donor. If not then I will leave everyone and Aaron too.

I don't want to leave him ever! Can't I be selfish for once in my life?