Forever with you❤️

Forever

*edited*

Aaron~

I have always kept my emotions in check! Always. I never got attached, never fell in love, and never cared about the opinions of others but my mom and dad's family, not after when I saw my family getting betrayed by my cousins.

That's when I got to know how powerful can money be, and how much power that word holds alone.

I saw my father breaking in front of my eyes when his brother betrayed him and I never wanted that to happen to me so I did what any sane person would do. I protected myself. I limited showing my emotions.

And love? I dared not to fall in love after I saw Sebastian going through a heartbreak, that too a very fucked up one. It was one of the most difficult times in his life.

He didn't know, heck I didn't know where was the real Sebastian at that point. Seeing him like that My heart hurted for that fucker, not that I will ever tell him.

Consider me selfish for all you want. But you have to think about yourself first to think about someone else's well-being.

But I have always cared and always will for my family. I love my family. I never felt so heartbroken to see someone cry. Showing Empathy was not my cup of tea until it comes to my family.

When I saw her crying for the very first time when she got to know she was betrayed by her family I just sighed thinking that history was repeating itself. She got hurt, and I did feel bad. I am sure she would have cried for the way I behaved with her and insulted her after that incident considering I am a fucking asshole but I was not there to see her.

But when she looked at me with huge tears in her eyes when I told her not to fall in love with me and she replied to me with a cold reply and turned her back on me, I knew I was fucked.

More than fucked maybe.

I felt- I don't know what just by the thought of losing her, Just by thinking about what would happen if she will seriously turn cold to me or will never talk to me.

But then my heart actually fucking broke for the first time when I saw my her, tears rolling down her eyes when I took her credit in front of everybody.

That was very fucking childish of me but I didn't think that she would cry about it. Never in my life have I felt that guilty when I did while looking into her beautiful eyes.

Fuck My pride, Fuck my ego, Fuck protecting my heart!! I care for my wife. I fucking care about her and it pisses me the fuck off.

And the thought of losing her or her not talking a single word to me scared the shit out of me. This is the last time I am letting her cry because of me or for anyone, now onwards she would never cry.

I don't let my family cry.

If seeing me smile would reward me with one of hers, I am going to try to fucking smile at her every time because that's the only thing on my mind when I am with her, and showing it on my face wouldn't hurt my ass.

I don't know why I said that divorce shit but I am not letting her go even if she will want it or not. I am never letting her go.

I will possibly chain her to me forever.

I like the shit which comes out of her mouth randomly.

This reason is valid for me to keep her forever.

She will not want me to or will never love me. I will still keep her with me.

Look I'm talking about her loving me. I am totally and utterly fucked.