Back In Your Arms (GM Series #4)

09

We all have our own battle to deal with, but using the trauma we are getting from that to hurt someone else is a big bullshit; that will never justify the action we did that inflicted pain to someone else.

That's trashy and will never be classy.

A week had pass and I haven't heard anything from Aydan. Ang sabi ay on leave daw ito. Hindi ko naman na inalam pa kung ano ang dahilan kahit si Head Nurse na ang nagsabi sa akin niyon.

Galit parin ako sa kanya kaya ayaw ko munang makarinig ng kahit ano tungkol sa kanya kahit ngayon lang.

And Head Nurse, my respect for her after knowing what she had done for Aydan increases. I now see her as my second mother-in-law...

"Mummy!" Mari shouted, running to me. Yumuko naman ako para salubungin siya ng yakap. I carried her.

"Are you having fun, baby?" I asked and planted a kiss on her cheek. My daughter immediately laughed because of that.

It was Sunday morning and I decided to bring her to the park. Mag-iisang oras na rin kami rito at parang hindi pa siya pagod.

Mari nodded to my question, she had this wide smile on her lips. I kissed her cheek again.

"Don't run too much, okay?" I said.

"Mommy swing!" Mari said instead, pointing at the swing behind us.

I smiled at her. "Alright, we will go there. But we will go home after that, okay?" I told her.

My daughter smiled more and nodded. She even wiggle her hands because of excitement. I brought her to the swing, I put her there as I stood behind her, slowly pushing the swing.

"Mommy more," she commanded, which made me chuckle, shaking my head.

"No, baby. Baka malaglag ka."

I told her and my baby pouted. I continued pushing her gently, watching how she was so content with this small thing.

Moments like this are one of the most treasured moment for me. Iyong ganitong simpleng bagay na sobra-sobrang kaligayahan na ang naidudulot sa anak ko. Hindi na ako hihiling pa ng mas higit pa sa makita ang kaligayahan ng aking anak, kaya hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit kailangan niyang pagdaanan ang sitwasyon ang ama niya mismo ang may gawa.

I let her play some more before I asked her to go home. Hindi naman nag reklamo ang anak ko at agad na sumama sa akin pauwi.

"Did you enjoy our time in the park?" I asked her. I was carrying her in my arms.

Mari nodded with a smile, showing her incomplete teeth.

"That's great. I will bring you to the park again next weekend. We will play again. Do you like that?"

Again, she smiled and nodded. "I like that, mummy," she said, painting a bit.

"You're panting, baby. Are you okay?" I asked, suddenly feeling worried that she might have an asthma attack.

My daughter nodded and smiled more. "I'm tired, mummy," she said and rested her head on my shoulders.

But to make sure and to calm myself as well, I still had her take her nebulizer arriving at home. I only calmed down when her breathing got stable.

So, we spent the rest of the day at home; we watched movies with my parents while eating my mom's homemade snacks. It was fun that when the next day came, it was so hard for me to get up from bed.

Ayaw kong pumasok pero alam kong hindi naman iyon pwede, hindi ko kayang ma-suspend na naman. At dahil bago palang ako sa ospital, wala pa akong leave. Kaya kahit labag sa loob ko ang pagpasok ay ginawa ko parin. I still went to work, iniisip ko na lang ang mga buhay na maaari kong matulungan sa araw na ito...at syempre, ang mga pangangailangan ni Mari.