MY GIRLS| billie eilish|

Chapter 61

lol remember when I said I would get this chapter out in a week... sorry guys I do be failing school and life:) anyways-

BILLIES POV

The concert is going to start soon and I'm pretty nervous. This is my first concert of the tour, and the first time I get to perform my album. You would think with all that going on, that would be the only thing on my mind. But it's not.

I'm worried about Katherine, and being a good girlfriend.

I haven't done relationships in a long time. Although, Katherine makes me the happiest I've ever been, I find myself wondering if I do enough for her.

Am I enough?

Katherine and I don't have the simplest story. There's always something, but I know no matter what it is she's always there for me. I feel like I haven't shown her the same. I mean all she wanted was for me to go public with her and I completely shut her down.

She hung up on me though... not completely my fault.

When she dismissed the conversation I had tried to start about our relationship, along with the look on her face, I knew I hurt her. Which is exactly why I've decided to show her how much she means to me by sacrificing some of our privacy.

Ha, try all your privacy

but Katherine deserves this

does she?

yes

but you like your privacy

yes but I love her

do you love her? or do you despise the idea of her being happy without you?

go away.

"Billie?" I heard Finneas' voice pulling me out of my loud thoughts

"Huh? What?" I asked confused looking around the quiet green room filled with anticipating eyes, watching me.

"I said we're going on soon so you should get ready." He said standing in the doorway.

"Oh okay-" I said still slightly confused.

"Don't talk, save your voice for the show-" Maggie says.

"Billie, Brandon and I were just talking about how since this concert kicks off the tour you really have to put on a great show cause the rest of tour depends on it so...no pressure." One of my managers Justin says.

"Billie, have you eaten today? Here, eat this." My mom says bringing a snack over and placing it in my hands. "Here, and drink this it'll help your voice." She puts a water bottle in the other hand.

"Sound good Billie?" Justin asks eyebrow raised.

"Billie why are you just sitting there you have to get changed still." Finneas says staring into the side of my head.

"Billie are you okay?" I hear Katherine ask quietly beside me.

" Billie! Don't just hold it. Eat and drink the water come on!" Maggie says lifting the food closer to my mouth.

"Billie."

be a good girlfriend.

"Billie."

you're gonna fuck up tonight. just watch.

"Billie."

"Billie."