MY GIRLS| billie eilish|

Chapter 20

KATHERINES POV

"No, I didn't," I started, " I was a virgin before you remember, all I wanted was you, and I could never do that to you." I said trying to help Billie understand

"But making out's okay right?" Billie said with attitude laced in her voice

nothing but silence filled the room once she said that

"I know it's not, I just- I don't know- I saw you're text and-" I said but Billie cut me off

" And what?! you decided to get back at me? That makes no sense Kat!" Billie pushes herself up from her seat and begins walking around the café, " you knew I was mad because you weren't answering! and you could've easily cleared that up rather than making out with some random guy!" she shouted

I wanted to give her the chance to say what was on her mind before I decided to speak again.

"Katherine I have tried to put myself in your shoes, many times. but shit just doesn't add up!  you could've fixed everything by just texting me back and I would've taken back what I said in a heart beat, but then you..." Billie sat herself down and I could see the tears gather in her eyes wanting to force their way out.

" Katherine, please just tell me that was it and it meant nothing" Billie said as a tear began to fall.

she wiped it away immediately.

"... it didn't mean anything I swear." I said grabbing her hands in mine

it felt so good to be able to touch her again, but seeing how much I hurt her made me feel like I was dying.

Billie pulled her hands out of mine...

"but that was it right? you just made out?" she said moving back

a part of me was dreading telling her this but if we were going to work through this I would have to be honest.

how am I supposed to tell her?

"well, I woke up next to him...in a hotel room. But that was it." I said holding my face in my hands

Billie stood up again

" I thought you said you didn't sleep together. were you lying?" Billie said

" no, not really. we slept together but we didn't sleep together." you said looking down

Billie scoffed and made her way back to her things. she started to pack up, and it was all because of me.

"I don't even know why I bothered showing up. you obviously don't care." she said heading towards the door.

" I do care Billie" I  said grabbing her arm as she walked away from me, "please."

Billie froze under my touch and ripped her arm out of my grasp. She took a second to collect herself.

"How am I supposed to trust you again?!why should I even give you a second chance?!" she yelled as she kept walking, reaching for the door.

"because I'm in love with you!"

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