MY GIRLS| billie eilish|

Chapter 7

KATHERINES POV

I recognized the voice.

it was my mom. what was she doing home?

she must have been let off early.

I immediately got out from under Billie, and pushed her into my walk in closet while I put my shirt back on.

" don't make a sound" I say closing my closet door on Billie with a grin

" yeah!" I scream rushing out of the room

I head downstairs and talk to my mom for a bit while I worry about Billie in my closet.

BILLIES POV

I walked around Katherines closet looking at her collection of clothes. I decided to help her pack her stuff while she was downstairs with her mom.

 I picked up the bag from before and started gathering all the clothes I thought she'd look the cutest in. Basically a lot of hoodies, she looked so adorable in oversized clothes.

I open up a drawer and find an open book.

I saw my name appear in it a couple times. this made me blush. 

To billie,

I've never been the kind, who makes plans for the future, who thinks about how things will turn out, but you are the one who makes me feel like, for the first time, I can build my hopes and dreams around something. when I look in your eyes I get lost in a deep blue ocean and can't stop, however when I do I also feel like I've seen everything there is to see. this is it, this is everything. I feel complete just by gazing at you.

 Reading this warmed my heart. I felt the exact same way about Katherine and I didn't think it was possible for anyone to care about someone more than I care about her. but I guess I was wrong. I was falling for her, and falling hard.

I turned over the page to continue the letter she wrote me.

the other day Billie and I got into a fight over her past, she said she can't change it, and I know that, but what I don't know is what her past was exactly. from what finneas said she seemed to have experience with other girls. it's kind of intimidating knowing she has a lot more experience than I do. I don't know if I should tell her I'm a virgin yet. I really don't want to scare her off like I did the last guy I liked. I just wasn't ready yet-

 I stopped reading once I realized it was no longer a letter to me and now a diary entry. 

Katherine's a virgin. this didn't scare me off but did make me question how my past must be affecting her. Losing it should be special, and she shouldn't have to rush anything for me.

I put the book down and kept packing her things.

I decided, I'm going to wait until Katherine is ready to do anything with her. And I'm determined to make it special once she is.

KATHERINES POV

I finished talking with my mom and walked back upstairs. I shut the door behind me and entered my closet where I found Billie with a huge smile on her face when she saw me.

damn she's got the best smile.

"hey, sorry about that." I said

"it's okay, I packed your bag while I waited." Billie replied, "can I talk to you about something? it's important" Billie said sitting me down next to her.

" yeah sure what is it" I said putting my hand on her leg.

" while I was packing I saw your diary- by accident- but why didn't you tell me before that you were a virgin?" Billie said looking directly at me.

at first I was mad she read my diary, but then I remembered leaving it open. so that wasn't all her fault. she didn't seem put off by my virginity which was different for me.

" well- as I'm sure you read in my diary, your experience is kind of intimidating. I kinda liked you not knowing, that way I could just get it over with." I said looking down

" You shouldn't do that Katherine, I don't want you to regret anything later" Billie's said picking up my face " you obviously wrote that recently and you aren't ready yet, so I'm gonna wait until I know you are ready."

"you are?" I said with a grin going in to kiss her to change her mind

But Billie dodged the kiss and gave me a peck on the forehead, "yup."

"ugh, I just want to get it over with." I groaned

Billie grabbed my hand and pulled me out of the closet.

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" do you want to go now, I packed your bag already" Billie said.

" yeah, I just got to grab a couple things" I said as Billie snuck out the back.

I went up to my room and grabbed some of my best lingerie.

I was going to lose it, no matter what Billie said. She couldn't always have it her way, I want to and she made it obvious earlier she wanted to too.

I went downstairs, told my mom I was staying with my friend for a couple nights, and prepared myself for the best week of my life.

I hopped into Billie's car with a smile on my face.

" what did you grab" she asked

" oh don't you worry, you'll find out soon enough."