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Chapter 17

BILLIES POV

I popped the cap off my sharpie, pulled back the sheet and began to write. suddenly there was a knock against my locked door.

"billie? you in there?" finneas said through the door

I didn't respond. I didn't feel like talking

"billie, you should eat something, it's been days... you can't survive on takis in there." finneas said walking away soon after.

it has been days since I've left my room, but I haven't been eating in here either. I tried to eat takis but I kept thinking of when I first met Katherine.

weird right?

it's okay thought, I haven't had much of an appetite lately... not since Katherine kissing that guy was all over my phone

I stopped crying over it a few hours ago. I usually don't cry for anyone for that long, but I've always known that Katherine was different.

Every time I thought of her it hurt. From the way she smiled at me, to her scent... the things about her that once made me so happy, were bringing me more pain than I could've ever imagined.

Katherine's tried talking to me, but I know that if I hear her voice I'll shatter.

My phone buzzed for the millionth time. My group of friends, Dani, Eli, and Isaac, have been texting me to check up on me but it was getting annoying. I walked over to my phone to check what they said this time...

To my surprise it wasn't any of them. It was her.

Kat

Hey I know you probably don't wanna see me but I need to talk to you

Please
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She wants to talk... should I go see her?
I don't know if I could handle seeing her I could barely keep the tears from falling out of my eyes over her text.

Did she realize how much she hurt me? I've never felt this depressed and alone in my life. She didn't even know I loved her. She doesn't know that I still love her. This is too hard... I just want it all to end.

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I walked out of my room for the first time in days. I headed straight for Finneas' room, and fell next to him on his bed.

"Billie, it's like 2 am" Finneas said sitting up rubbing his eyes

" I need to talk to someone..." I said playing with my rings nervously

"Okay, I just got to grab my clothes and I'll meet you in your room" he said with a smile

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Finneas walked into my room and we talked for hours. I told him about the kiss, the texts I sent her, the lack of texts she sent me, right up to the kiss that ruined us.
"...she texted me a couple hours ago..." I said

"What did you say?" Finneas asked intrigued

"Nothing, I left her on read..." I said with an oops face

" well from what you just told me, you still love her, and she's trying to fix things. I think the least you could do is hear her out. Just out of respect for what you had" Finneas said with a strange wisdom

How is he always right? The hell?

"I'll text her in a bit and I'll let her explain." I said

" okay good, cause you were depressing as hell, let me cheer you up" he said giving me a light shove

Finneas always knew how to make me feel better.

We decided to talk to the fans, indirectly of course. We didn't want to hear things about Katherine.

Finneas escapes my room after two hours in here. He managed to cheer me up, I was finally feeling happy again.

I figured now would be a good time to text Katherine back. I was nervous but I knew it was what I needed.

Sorry for the wait I just have been up to a lot,but hopefully if this gets good feed back I'll be here more often. Love you💞