MY GIRLS| billie eilish|

Chapter 33

KATHERINES POV

"W-what?" Billie said obviously just as shocked as the rest of us

"I'm going to be okay guys." Q says tearing up once more

Everyone is crying with him, but frozen. No one knows how this is possible. Somehow all at once we turn to Brandon's doctor for some clarification.

"We did some tests and he's doing much better than before, and since he made it through the night, things are really looking up for Brandon. It will take some time to heal but as of right now, we are certain he's going to live, as long as he continues down this path." he says

The doctors words earn more tears and smiles all around the room. I can't believe he's going to live. We all rush to his side and engulf him in a big hug. But still gentle cause- well, he was shot.

We all start to release and I turn to my left to look at the love of my life who looks happier than ever before, the woman that has done nothing but make me better... the one that also just asked me for a break less than 20 minutes ago when she thought Q was dying...

Fuck

What's going to happen to us now?

Calm down Kat, he's alive and that's all that matters. Don't ruin the moment.

Billie's red puffy eyes look up to meet mine, I flash her a semi-fake smile so she doesn't read my thoughts displayed all over my face. But I know she can see right through me, so there's no use.

Luckily Billie turns her attention back to Q wiping away his tears and offering him a warm smile.

I don't know whether to despise him, thank him, or just accept what's bound to happen.

I fear that now that he's going to live Billie will choose him, which would make me despise him for some reason, but I should be thanking him for saving her in the first place. But fuck- I love her and I want her to be with me. I know that's incredibly selfish to think, but I cant help but wonder if that's what will happen.

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I sit in the small chair for hours listening to all of them talk, watching their hope being restored and happiness seep back into their faces. It really isn't my place to deliver some heart warming speech to Brandon about my happiness toward this big news. We had only just met, I don't have any memories with him- unless you count shootings in a park.

I have no choice but to sit here and watching him make Billie smile and beam with joy. I want to be the person to do that. I said I would stay with her for support but we've barely talked since we all heard the news.

I feel like I have no choice but to watch her slip away from me. This break is going to hurt more than anything. I can already feel us drifting apart.

BILLIES POV

He's going to live.

Why does she look so sad?

My thoughts are split, and they've been like this for hours. Ever since I walked into the room and heard the news, saw that fake smile Kat wore. I couldn't wrap my head around it.

She was so understanding on the rooftop all the way to the room.

I know Kat's not the type of person to be mad or sad about someone getting great news like Q did. She has to be happy for him, I know she is.

So why is she sitting all alone?

Why is she not talking, with her head hanging low, so isolated?