Still With My Memories

54. Tear

"Y-You ... You know Jimin?" Jungkook asked. Clueless of how his brother known Jimin. His doe eyes stares at his brother with love and adoration but would he still feel the same if he would've known his relationship with his boyfriend?

Jimin heard him but he doesn't know how to explain nor how to speak. He was dumbstruck of the figure standing before him.

What would he feel is not even a question.

In a split second, the world he tried to fixed and built with Jungkook was brutally turned upside down and every pieces were shattered in front of him.

He had long to see his face.

Those smile.

He waited.

Wished.

Hoped.

Even begged.

Just to see his smile again.

And now that it is in front of him,

Why does sadness and anger fills his heart instead?

A tear rolled down his cheeks and so as to Taehyung. There was only silence and Jungkook is not dumb to not notice Jimin's sad eyes and his brother's eyes filled with longing.

His question was left hanging but he feels like he was already answered by the exchange of gaze that tortures him inside. He was suddenly choked by uneasiness building inside his chest.

"It's been a w-while." Taehyung speaks not minding a lump forming on his throat.

Little by little, Jungkook supposed like he was slowly shrinking and fading in the picture of his own love story. He started to feel confused, insecure, and worst, a bystander watching the main characters in a romantic movie.

Taehyung took a step forward.

Closer.

And closer.

And Jimin can't believe his eyes. His lips remained shut and eyes wide open.

Jungkook witnessed it all.

How his brother took his love's hands and pulled him into a hug. It was a sight more suffocating than being left inside a burning house.

"I missed you... so much. It hurts everyday." Taehyung said as he hugged Jimin tightly. The deep voice that used to comfort him sounds so nostalgic and he just can't hold the flood of tears anymore. His eyes were not deceiving him.

Taehyung was there in flesh.

Jimin returned the hug while crying his heart out.

All this time, he thought he was dead.

What could've happened?

How is he alive?

Why is he gone for two fucking years?

Why did he let him feel dead despite being alive?

Why...

Why did he let him fall in love with Jungkook ?

Jimin wanted to curse but he couldn't.

He missed his bestfriend and undeniably his first love too.

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Jungkook hastily turned around. He can't bear to watch anymore. His heart ached so much, he didn't realize he was crying too. Although he didn't have clear answer as to what is happening, he already knew...

The man he envy.

Jimin's first love.

The pure reason of his agony.

Is none other than his brother.

"Why ... it has to be him?"

There was tear in his eyes,

because his heart was torn apart.

JIMIN POV

I hugged him firmly with my hands desperately clutching on his clothes. All my emotions were overflowing, I didn't even know what is the right thing to feel.

I was crying because of frustration, happiness, sadness, confusion and anger all mixing up together.

"I missed you... so much. It hurts everyday." He said and I can't even utter a reply.

I missed you too. I wanted to say but no words came out except a hicup. It's true that I missed him.

Whole fucking two years.

I mourn for him.

I died with him.

But what is this?

After I pick up my broken pieces and Jungkook glued every piece of my shattered heart, he will show up like nothing happened.

I need a reason.

But was I ready to know?

What if he has a valid reason?

Will it be enough to mend everything that happened in the past? Will everything change between me and Jungkook?

I don't even have courage to ask why.

Because once I knew, it could change everything in snap.

I am fooling myself, I know, but I am too afraid to loose him, Jungkook. My own feelings were scaring me.

AUTHOR'S POV
Jimin was the first one to let go of the hug. His face full of grime looked messier when his tears mixed up with dirt.

After calming himself, his eyes automatically looked for Jungkook.

"J-Jung... Jungkook ah." He called in between hiccups. Taehyung was a little surprised. He was expecting to hear Jimin's voice calling his name again but he guess, he's just shocked of his sudden appearance. At least, he thought.

"Y-Yes?" Jungkook answered wearing the fakest smile he could make.

Like he wasn't hurt.

Like he didn't want to punch his own brother for hugging his boyfriend in front of him.

Like he didn't want to pull Jimin and hide him again to Taehyung so he can still be his boyfriend.

So he can still stay as his Moon Rabbit.

But he guess destiny turned things differently.

He knew he can't compete with his brother.

He knew he has to give way.

For the better.

Things always turned out like this. Since Taehyung got sick, he lived alone so his mother can take care of Taehyung. He endured living alone so his brother can get better. He gives it unconditionally cause he loves his hyung.

He knew his brother too well.

His eyes as he looked at Jimin is the same eyes he had as he looked at the other.

He knew...

That they are in love with the same person.

-To be continued -

A/N: Another short update. I hope you enjoy :-)
P.S. I pour my heart writing this. It's not perfect but I hope you shed some tears with me. 😭😭