BOOK 1: "STILL WITH MY MEMORIES" is a story of finding and choosing love between present and the past. An ordinary love story it seemed, but it is not.
JIMIN POV It's been three months but I'm still broken. It was pain that love brings when I learn that its all been a lie.
I cried.
I still cry.
Nothing brings my heart so much pain than love.
Sometimes I want to feel numb, as numb as my hand when I pick up the pile of white flaky snow from the ground.
The cold breeze just gave me shivers, so as his cold and unconcerned gaze. Jungkook is still my photographer but our relationship remains as just co-worker now.
I didn't know why our story turned so sad nor did we really had 'the story' from the start. It hurt to think that I'm the only one who felt that way.
"We're done here." He said and never even spared a glance at me. I saw him rummage his back pocket and pull out his phone.
A smile crept on his face.
His little smile hurts me. Can't we ever go back to where we used to be, when those smiles are meant for me?
You are heartless, Jeon Jungkook but I am stupidly longing to hold you one more time. I want you to look at me again with the same sincerity as before.
Our story changed faster than I thought. How can your love became so fragile? I want to know but you shut your doors at me.
Until now, I want to believe you have bigger reason but I wouldn't know if you won't tell me. You won't even look at me and it tears me inside.
As the snow piles up and the coldness embraces me, I want to freeze my heart so I'll feel no pain anymore but it's never that easy.
Just like the crystal snow, you get further from my reach, the more I wish for it.
And as stupid as it may seem, in my eyes you are still shining and even sparkling. I want to see you, even I have to pretend to be okay.
TAEHYUNG POV Here I am, watching Jimin from afar. I'd never felt like this before but as time goes by, things just seemed different.
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I can't explain the way I'm feeling but I felt like I'm losing control of my heart. My heart ached just looking at him. The eyes that glows whenever I see him, now looked lifeless. He often smile but it never really reached his eyes.
The time we rescued them, I thought he would ask me why did I leave? Or why have I been gone for long? But I hear nothing from him. I still can't forget his tear-stained eyes.
There was so much pain in his eyes and I wonder if I'm the one who caused him that pain?
Since then, I also noticed a drastic change on Jungkook's behavior. He often got home dead ass drunk and spent most of his free time partying. Jungkook was very responsible kid, but now, I felt like living with a stranger. I couldn't even catch him awake during his day-offs.
