The Night to my Stars

Chapter Nine

❤︎River's POV❤︎

☹︎possible TW☹︎

❤︎. I run my hands over my face in a frustrated manner for the hundredth time since Meave left the room.

My tempers been out of control lately. Clearly.

I feel so awful. The way she flinched away from me and the look on her face after I yelled at her.

Ugh.

I walk over to my desk and smack everything onto the floor, doing anything to let my anger out.

I smack Maeve's tea cup off my night stand causing it to shatter harshly against the wall.

My heart is humming in my chest, breathing erratic and uncontrollable.

I taste the salt from the warm tears that are now hastily falling down my face.

I clench my fists as I feel a sob bubble up in my chest. I back up against the wall, sliding down so that I can sit and give my weak knees a rest.

The sobs fell from my mouth relentlessly, one after another. I rest my head on my knees and let out something between a scream and a sob, punching at the sides of my thighs.

I squeeze into a tighter ball, trying to calm myself down.

I want Meave.

I wipe away snot and tears and look out the window absentmindedly.

I sit there for almost an hour. Not necessarily thinking just zoning out.

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After coming to, I sit up blankly. My movements sluggish as I walk. I open my door and go straight to meaves room.

Shes probably very upset with me.

I knock on her door softly. She quickly answers, her eyes a bit red from crying. I undoubtedly looked much worse.

Without any words spoken she pulls me into a hug. I squeeze her tight feeling the sobs wanting to start up again.

She pulls me in while cooing soft nothings in my ear.

We sit on the bed and I hold her closer, shoving my head into the crook of her neck.

"I'm sorry Maeve, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it." I kept repeating in a cracked voice. Sobs racking my chest harshly causing me to let out pitiful hiccups here and there.

She rubs my back softly while repeatedly placing kisses against my head.

"It's okay, you're alright I'm here. I forgive you lovely it's okay."

After what feels like hours of encouraging whispers from Meave I finally relax.

All the tension leaving my tired body.

I lay against her chest weakly, hiccuping on my own breathe ever so often.

She pulls me down to lay, our bodies still connected.

She runs her soft fingers through my hair as I lay on her chest.

"You can talk to me about anything you know." She says in a soft voice.

I nod my head except I cant talk to her. Ive been so stressed lately. I feel so horrible. My mental health is horrible.

My mother on top of it all does not help. The whole reason I started talking to Meave was to get back at her family. Instructions from my mother.

She wanted me to get with Meave and earn her trust. So I did.

But that's the thing, at first I was only doing it for my mother.

More recently, Ive truly started feeling something for her. I'm not sure what.

If she finds out she will hate me again.

I don't want that to happen. Yet, I also don't want to keep feeling like I'm lying to her face.

I sigh in frustration and hide my face into the crook of her neck again, wanting to be closer.

I take a small whiff of her skin. She's always smelt the same.

It's the softest prettiest scent. Honey tea and a splash of flowers is a good way to describe it.

I feel her tracing small patterns against my skin.

"I really do forgive you Rivs, I know you didn't mean it. I know you're struggling with something. I'll be here for you whenever you need."

I place a gentle peck on her shoulder to show my gratitude.

"You mean so much to me Maeve." I whisper out in my strained voice.

I feel her heart speed up a bit.

"You mean the world to me." She whispers back.

In that moment, it was as if everything clicked.

Did I..love her?

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AHHHHH so okay short chapter I apologizeeeee I just felt that was a good stopping point.

Alsoooo id like to point out the Maeve is pronounced either "MAY-eev or MAY-vee"

There's a few different meanings for it, most commonly "A purple flower" or a variation of "Intoxicating"

oh also can you see the chapter photos? I can't tell.

Anyways I hope you enjoyed!!

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