It Will Always Be You (방찬)

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(a/n: Normal/English ; Se Rin/Eomma/Eomeoni/Boss+JYP+Doctor)

Time went by so quickly. By May, the company and I were discussing my contract because it's time to make a decision. Chan and I barely met and only called each other most of the time. We had officially started dating. We've told our families and the members about it. But we missed our timing to tell our company. I missed him so much. But a lot of things have happened and we can't do anything about it. We were both just happy to sneak glances and quick kisses when we see each other at work.

I've been so exhausted these days. There were days that I'd just sleep all day. But since I had the twins, I had to force myself off the bed most day. Even today as I got up to go to work. I had a meeting with my bosses because of my contract. The kids were already next door at my parent's house when I got out of the shower. I haven't been feeling well these days. Well, it's been almost a month since I started feeling unwell. I didn't want to worry anyone so I never told anyone. Except for my manager Sun Gyu oppa. I asked him to pick me up because I really wasn't feeling well. He came and brought me to work. I fell asleep on the way there.

I immediately headed up to the meeting with my bosses. We were discussing something about my payment when I started feeling uncomfortable. I felt something wrong with my stomach. I felt like I was going to throw up. I quickly apologized and excused myself. I covered my mouth with my palm and ran to the nearest comfort room. When I got there, I ran to the nearest cubicle and threw up. I couldn't understand what was happening. But I kept throwing up. I felt tired and weak. I tried calming myself as I sat on the floor when a wave of nausea hit again and I started vomiting again. When it finally stopped, I went to rinse my mouth at the sink. I quickly cleaned myself up and went back to the meeting. My bosses sat there looking concerned as I entered the room.

"I'm really sorry." I apologized again.

"I heard from your manager that you aren't feeling well. Are you able to finish our meeting today?" asked my boss.

"I think Se Rin should go and rest for now. You don't look so well." Said JYP PD-nim.

"Okay. Let's continue when you're feeling better." Said my boss and then everyone got up.

"I'm really sorry." I apologized again as they walked out of the room.

I sat there idly for a while until Sun Gyu oppa came to get me. I kept thinking about what could be wrong with me. Then a realization hit me. I haven't bought new menstruation pads in months. I panicked and looked at Sun Gyu oppa who was surprised by my sudden panic. I asked him to bring me to the hospital for a checkup. He obliged and brought me there. I felt very nervous on the way there. I haven't told Sun Gyu oppa about what was wrong with me.

I made my way to an OB-GYN. Thankfully, there were no patients there. I made an appointment and was immediately brought into the doctor's office. She asked me questions and I told her everything. She then told me to follow a nurse to do my pregnancy test. I waited nervously for the results inside the doctor's office. She reassured me that everything was confidential. When the nurse came back, she handed the doctor some papers and then she left. The doctor read them and turned to me. She then told me to lie down on the bed. I did as I was told and then she pulled my shirt and pulled my pants down a little. Then she pulled a machine close and then she turned it on and then I felt something cold as she rubbed something on my belly. I turned my eyes to the monitor. That's when I saw it. It was already bigger than I thought it would be and both of them were big. And then I heard it. It sounded like the fluttering of a bird.

"Congratulations Ahn Se Rin shi. As you can see and hear, both babies' heartbeats are strong." Said the doctor.

"What? How long has it been?" I asked.

"It's already around 4 months. Congratulations! I'll prescribe some supplements for you to help with the baby." She said and then she gave me some tissue to wipe myself with.

I couldn't stop the tears that were streaming down my face. I had mixed emotions. I didn't know if I should be happy or what. Many thoughts filled my head. After my consultation, the doctor gave me my test results along with my prescription and the ultrasound. I thanked her and then I settled my bills. I carefully headed to the parking where Sun Gyu oppa was and got into the car. He asked me if everything was fine. I just nodded and asked him to bring me home.

On the way there, I asked him to stop by a pharmacy to buy everything on the prescription for me. Then I handed him my card and asked him to buy some pregnancy tests too. He was puzzled by my request but still obliged. I waited in the car in silence. Many thoughts flooding my mind at once.

What should I do? I can't tell Chan about this. How is this happening now? How am I supposed to handle this? What about work? I don't want to bring trouble to anyone. I don't know what to do. These thoughts plagued my mind until I heard the door open and saw Sun Gyu oppa getting into the car. He handed me paper bag and then returned my prescription and card. I thanked him and then he brought me home.

When I got back, I went straight to the bathroom and used the pregnancy tests that I asked Sun Gyu oppa to buy for me. I knew that they would all turn up positive. But I still wanted to see anyway. I didn't know what to do. I sat there on my bed with the tests and results sprawled out on my bed in front of me. I couldn't stop myself from crying. Things were made worse by my constant nausea. I ended up sitting on the bathroom floor, crying. But I guess things could still get worse.

I heard my kids running around calling me. I tried to get up and wipe away my tears. But I was too weak to do it. They found me crying on the bathroom floor. Soo Hyun immediately looked at me with concern while Woo Hyun ran out quickly. Seeing the kids made me cry even more. A few minutes later, I heard quick footsteps and then I saw eomma with Woo Hyun. She immediately came and pulled me into a tight hug. I immediately burst out crying. She reassured the kids that I'll be alright and told them to go back to appa. After they left, I completely broke down. But being in her arms comforted me.

"What's wrong baby? What's happening to you? Why do look like a wreck?" she asked me worriedly.

"What should I do eomma? I can't tell him about this. I don't want to put him into trouble. He's already having a hard time as it is. I don't know what to do eomma." I wailed.

"Who is it? What is it? Please tell me what's wrong." She begged me. I was about to reply when a wave of nausea came again. I pushed her away lightly and grabbed the toilet as I vomited. She held my hair for me and spoke words of comfort as she pats my back. When it was finally over, I flushed the toilet and went to wash my hands. Then I rinsed my mouth and made up my mind.

"Eomma, can you wait for me at the table, I have something to tell you." I said through the tears.

"Okay." She replied and then she left me alone.

After she left, I gathered everything I got from the hospital and carried them with me along with my phone and the pregnancy tests. I hid them from view and then I dialed eomeoni's number to facetime with her. She picked up and her smile immediately faded when she saw my state. She and eomma kept asking me what was wrong. I put my phone on the stand and then I gathered my thoughts. I took a deep breath before speaking.

"I'm really sorry. I didn't mean for any of this to happen." I apologized.

"Why are you apologizing baby?" asked eomma.

"What happened dear?" asked eomeoni.

"I'm really sorry." I said again as I carefully put the pregnancy tests, test results and ultrasound on the table. Eomma gasped and then she held them up for eomeoni to see. I couldn't look at them. Then I heard them sniffling too.

"Is it Chan's?" asked eomeoni.