Sometimes you just look yourself in the mirror then think all the things you've done. Thinking you could've done better. You could've been a better daughter for them.
And sometimes whenever I struggle or overthink things, I always never let my parents out of it. I always think if I do this will they be blank. If I say things would my parents would be blank. If I blank would my parents would blank... It's hard because you're holding yourself just with the idea of your parents. Like you can't freely express yourself because you would think how would your parents react to that. Weird, huh? Your own parents, you're not even comfortable with opening up with them.
And when I thought about that, I think of wanting to vanish and run away because they deserve a better daughter.
12/15/21 @3:02am
YOU ARE READING
My book
Randomcreated a new one since I couldn't have access to my old one :) a letter to my future self: don't be stupid started: december 4, 2021- Saturday
