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Ewan ko.

Hindi ko alam yung aken.

I thought set on na ako sa pagiging teacher since yun lang naiisip kong kakayanin ko. common yun so i think easy lang yun. (sometimes I don't)

Pero.... UAHHHH HINDI KO ALAM

hirap naman jusko. normal naman na malito kung anong pasyang gagawin mo para sa buhay. pero hindi normal na hindi mo alam ang gagawin.

takot sa commitment hahaha

pero no joke, super unsure na ako sa path ako.

sinabi sakin ni papa, what if mag-lawyer ako.

nasabi ko agad nasa isip ko: malabo, ayaw ko, hirap na hirap nun.

then i was thinking maybe nakikita niya yung mga nakapasa sa exam kaya lawyer na cla. i was proud of them too.

pero if i were in their spot, aiming to be a lawyer, I don't think i can do that.

first, I don't like arguing. second, they study too much. third, I don't like dirty works. fourth, I don't wanna disappoint my self and everyone else. and fifth, diving in when you don't know anything is hella scary.

then naisip ko na maybe ayaw ni papa sa amin na teacher lang kami. don't get me wrong, being a teacher is an honor and great.

pero i think naiisip ni papa na we can do more than being a teacher.

kaya iniin-courage niya kami na mag lawyer, doctor, or pulis.

Those are such major jobs, it's too much.

I'm trying to see and courage myself na kaya ko mag-nurse or doctor (hopefully) para hindi ako matakot if sakali magbago tuluyan ang isip ko.

i kind of want to challenge myself to be a nurse. Being called as a nurse sounds heaven haha.

Like yeah sure, I'll help you with your life. I can put a band aid on your wound hahahahaha

But no seriously... what if nurse nalang?

the only really serious thing kaya napapahinto ako about being a nurse is that... magastos. sobra.

baba pati sweldo rito sa pinas hay.

the last thing i want to be is to be a burden in this family.

as much as possible, i want to bring presents and blessings in my family. gusto ko sopresahan ko cla. i wanted that.

hopefully, I'll gain more courage to think about taking nursing. it's sounds amazing, I'll invest more time on this.

going back as a teacher, pwede naman ako lumipat ng japan lololol. as an english teacher di buh, taas pa sweldo dun hahaha

isa yun sa option ko, after maging teacher, lipat ako ibang bansa hahaha

I'll honestly be surprised if may na-discover ako ibang profession na possible i-take ko hahaha

pero sabi ni mama, mag-humms nalang daw since may background ako about dun. so whether daw hummd or abm.

if abm, business ad daw hahahahha sabi ko pano ba yan, magastos ako hahahaha

sigh

whatever comes, will come

psh, other phrase lang yun nung it is what it is hahaahaha

okay bye na, just...

just trust yourself a little bit more, lyra.

FIGHTING!!!!!

12.9.23