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COMMUNICATION

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I need friends who are still friends with me even if we don't talk for days, weeks, or months. Like... in that situation, I can really call you a friend. Well, if I'm also comfortable and showing you a peak of my self to you, I'm able to address you as my friend.

I especially wanted them to understand that most of the time I don't have the energy to communicate. I don't want them to think that I ghosted them or I hate them, NO. I would never hate someone entirely.

They have to also understand that I am easily drained while talking/communicating with them. And then after that I won't talk to anyone (except if it was an emergency) as long as I have the motivation to do so.

They have to be patient to have the best of me.

I know I worry about not having friends in the future but I couldn't help my self. I honestly don't want to force myself to communicate to keep our friendship going. I don't want to make an effort just to have them my "friends" for as long as I do.

That's why I'm grateful that I have someone who is that. Yes, I also worry about them not talking to me until we are not friends anymore because I am not the type of person to be the one who'll chat first. So I'm grateful to have them. :)

4/4/22