His Island

Epilogue

"How many countries did you travel to so far?" Harry asked.

I just met him here in Vegas and we're both traveling the world alone. I have fun talking to him and it was nice to have a little conversation with a stranger.

"hmm... 9 or 10?"

He smiled at me. "That was already a lot in a year hu?"

I agree. I didn't stop traveling and traveling. I don't want to go home so I need to go to another country. I was happy and enjoying it but I know I will be the happiest man if I have her with me. I always wish that she was with me at any destination I've been to.

I've seen many amazing spots and countries that I want her to witness too. Umalis nga ako pero siya pa rin ang nasa isip ko. Mahal ko pa rin siya at walang magbabago roon. Hinayaan ko nalang ang sarili ko na isipin na lagi ko siyang kasama na akin pa rin siya dahil sumasaya ako roon. Hanggang doon nalang ang pwede kaya hayaan na.

"Your next will be?"

I sigh, thinking if I should continue to go to the Maldives. That's my first stop and I was arguing with myself if I should go back. The place is nice but the main reason is I love daydreaming that she's with me because I remember that she told me that they find out here that she's sick and whenever I heard or think the Maldives or even just looking at an Island, I always remember, Lyle.

It broke my heart into pieces whenever I look back to the past. I met her for the first time but I'm mentally unstable. Alam kong magkakaroon ng problema sa pamilya ako at magulo ang pinanggalingan ko pero hindi kasi mapipigilan ang nararamdaman. Kahit ramdam ko na magiging mahirap at dadating ang panahon na susubukin kami, pinili ko pa ring umamin dahil mahal ko na siya.

Akala ko dati alam ko na ang ibig sabihin ng pagmamahal pero nang makilala ko si Lyle ay naramdaman ko lang at siya na ang nagpaintindi at nagturo sa'kin no'n.

Walang madali sa pagbitaw sa kaniya dahil hindi ko naman talaga gusto 'yon. Kailangan lang para sa kaniya. Kailangan dahil doon siya sasaya.

"Maldives," I decided.

Natuloy nga ako at hindi ko naman pinagsisihan. Hindi ko alam na may balak siya na hanapin ako kung nasaan man ako. I always daydream but I never imagine that she will just go to where I am and pop out of nowhere. I never thought that a single post can change our life.

I was stalking her account whenever I miss her but that's it. I'm trying to move and let go of her. Magiisang taon na, baka nawala na talaga ng tuluyan ang pagmamahal niya sa'kin at masaya na siya sa kapatid ko. Unti unti na'kong bumabangon at kahit minsan ay namimiss ko siya, hinahayaan ko lang ang sarili ko pero may limitasyon lang 'yon dahil pinapahirapan ko lang din ang sarili ko imbis na tulungan na tuluyang maka move on.

I posted my pictures to my Ig account because I got bored. I have lots of pictures but I rarely post, just this time because why not? Kaka post ko lang ay kinabukasan andito na agad siya.

Hindi ko alam ang mararamdaman dahil hindi pa naging maganda ang muli naming pagkikita. I want to burst into frustration and anger! I was surprised, confused, amazed, and scared that she was there!