His Island

Chapter 34

"You're not the one who will choose. I'll decide. You're taking the business course." He looks at my younger brother. "You too. Both of you."

"Bu-"

"I said what I said! That's final!" our ruthless father said with finality before leaving.

I bit my lower lip while looking at my brother. He's very vocal that's why he always has the courage to tell my father what he really wants but then...our father is being himself again. He never listens. Our father is not a father figure. Our father that's selfless and his life is money. Money, money, and Money.

"I will try to convince hi-"

Hans snorted. "Wag na, Kuya. Para namang kaya mo syang mapapayag."

My face become stern. "I'll still try. I will do my best for you. Susubukan kong maiangat uli ang kumpanya para makuha mo na ang course na gusto mo."

He smiled. "You always sacrifice everything for me hu? Always my hero."

I rolled my eyes. Way back when we're kids. Hans is such a pain in the ass. My father usually tortures us when he gets mad. I tried as much as possible to convince my father to have all the punches and leave him alone. I love my brother so much and the same with my mother. 

Even I was so tiny at that time... I'm always the one who saves and stands for them. I was crying at first but when it frequently happens... I slowly get to use to the pain. The pain of my bruises didn't just mark my skin but in my soul. It's easy to forgive but not forget.

Patanda ako ay mas dumadagdag ang sama ng loob ko sa kanya. Living with him is like living in hell. Maybe living in hell was so much better. Natuto nakong lumaban lalo na noong dumalas ang pagtatalo nila ni Mommy. In the end kami nalang ang nagsuntukan. I didn't regret it, I will always do everything for Mom.

I sighed before closing my eyes and cracking my neck. "Fuck this!"

"Please! Kahit man lang wag kana umuwi wag kalang magsayang ng pera!"

I go back to studying while listening to them. I was breathing so heavily while listening to Mom's whine and her shout. This is the everyday routine. I'm used to it. Hindi naman dapat ganito pero eto na ang kinalakihan naming pamilya ni Hans. Wala kaming choice. This is the family and environment we grew. 

Minsan sobrang hirap huminga sa bahay na to. I always thought of leaving. Always. I'm going through that point but then... Mom and Hans need me. Kung wala sila ay hindi nako magtitiis dito at matagal na akong umalis.

"FUCK YOU! TAO KA PA BA?! IF MOM WON'T BE OKAY I WILL FUCKING SEE YOU IN THE COURT!" hingal at galit na galit kong sigaw sa kanya. 

I will never forget this day. We took Mom to the hospital because he push her to the stairs because of anger. Nabagok ang ulo nya at ooperahan. Hindi ako makaiyak at si Hans naman ay tulala. I don't know why he needs to hurt us to cope up with his anger. I don't understand why we need to live a life like this. It's exhausting.