His Island

Chapter 15

Nakapagbihis na uli ako ng dress and under it is my extra bikini. Kakatapos lang din namin kumain ng dinner at nakaupo lang kami dito sa may buhangin. Malamig at wala kang makikita sa sobrang dilim. May ilaw kami nanangagaling sa cottage namin pero hindi yun umabot sa pwesto kung nasaan kami.

Deja vu.

Parang ganito lang din ang set up namin nung nakaraan. Pinahiram nya sakin ang hoodie nya kaya hindi nako nilalamig.

Nakatingin ako sa langit habang yakap yakap ang sarili. Kanina nung nakatulog sya pagkatpos namin kumain ay nagsuka ako. Sobrang tagal ko sa banyo at ayokong iparinig sa kanya dahil baka magaalala sya. I keep on experiencing the symptoms.Wala na akong planong sabihin sakniya dahil okay naman na ako ngayon. I feel so tired at nakakaramdam uli ako ng panghihina.

Nilingon ko ang katabi ko bago ako lumapit. Walang pasabing isinandal ko ang ulo ko sa may balikat nya. I sigh before I close my eyes. I felt his hand gently caressing my hair. I don't know why i'm getting emotional just by that. Is just that it so comforting. No one dares to talk and we stay like that for awhile. Sometimes this is the comfort we need.

I felt his arm around my shoulder, he's now hugging me a little but I'm still in this position while my eyes are still close.

Leaves will soon grow from the bareness of trees
And all will be alright in time

Mahina syang kumanta at ako naman at nagsimula naman akong maging emosyonal. Nahihirapan ng huminga dahil sa pinipigil kong iyak. Ayokong tumigil sya.

From waves overgrown come the calmest of seas
And all will be alright in time

Tumulo ang luha ko ng tuluyan pero mabilis ko itong pinunasan at pumikit muli. I really hope that I will be alright in time. Tumigil sya sa pagkanta at niyakap ako ng mahigpit. Nakasubsob nako sa mukha nya habang humihikbi ng tahimik.

"Baby,"

Tumigil nako sa pagiyak but he's still hugging me.  I'm used to him calling me that. "hmm?"

"No matter what happens I'll be there. I'll be here beside you. I'll support you in all your decisions. No matter how hard the situation is..." huminto sya at huminga ng malalim

"I promise to be there."

Kumalas ako sa pagkakayakap at inayos muli ang sarili. Siguro nga dapat nanamin pagusapan ni Mommy ang tungkol kahit mahirap. Doon din naman kami hahantong ba't pa namin patatagalin? Nakapagdesisyon na ko naituloy at gawin na ang operasyon.

"Don't break your promise," sabi ko habang nakatingin ako sa kanya.

He smiled. "I won't."

I smile back. This is it.

I was so eager to ask him this in the past days we were together.

"Do you like me?" I ask him with no hesitation.

He was surprise by my sudden question. Nakabawi naman sya agad at yumuko. Ilang minuto pa bago nya sagutin ang tanong ko.

He sighed. "Yes."

Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko sa sagot nya. Nararamdaman ko namang gusto nya ko pero hindi ko parin maiwasang mamangha.

"I don't know when it started but I knew even though it's just a month since we met, I know what is this. After you a company me, I'm being myself again. When you didn't tell me your plans, I feel devastated. I started to worry about you and I want to be with you all the time. I want to go home and see you." nakatitig lang ako sa mata nya na puro pagmamahal ang ipinapakita.