My soldier in Neverland (Jack Barakat)

Chapter 15

Jack

When I got to Brook's apartment I had no idea that she would already be getting sick. I feel really bad for her I think while rubbing her back for the second time that night. She finaly pukes something up and I take the bucket away from her and head to the bathroom, I really don't know what I am doing until I see the steps on the mirorr of what to do, Rian was always the one to do this stuff for us. First dump it in the toilet and flush it, obviously. Then I have to fill the bucket with hot water and put a cup of bleach in it. After that I thought I was done but I fill a dixie cup with mouthwash and bring it to her to rinse her mouth out, I just asume that she will spit it back into the cup, she does and I dump it down the drain and throw the cup away. I skip the step of putting a cold towel on her forehead because I am guessing that she will go right to sleep, however I do rub her back when I lay down with her again.

"Im sorry." I hear from her, and I don't say anything because I know she just wants me to accept it. I don't fall asleep I just listen to the rythme of her breathing until Blondie comes in three hours later and tells us its time to get up for a big day she has planned.

"Do you need help getting up?" I ask her.

"No, but can you ask her what she has planned so I can dress apropriatly?" She asks. I get up and find Blondie in the kitchen with Dillion. Both are making breakfast.

"She wants to know what to wear." I tell her.

"Oh I got this." Dillion says grabbing a shopping bag and walking into her room.

"So what happend last night?" She asks. She still doesn't trust me even though we talked for at least two hours about mine and Brooks relationship.

"Well she threw up again, that list helped me thank you." I tell her while getting a glass of orange juice.

"She did?!" She doesn't sound happy. "Why didn't you wake me up?"

"I thought I would let you rest." I tell her in my defense.

"Okay, thank you. I am just so used to taking care of her by myself. Sorry." She says with an ashamed look on her face whilst she stirrs the eggs.

"No, I understand. I am just another hand to help you I am not taking your palce." I tell her while I walk into the living room to wake Alex up, who is sleeping on the couch.

"Alex time to wake up." I shake him awake and he moans loudly.

 "Alex don't be grumpy, look I even brought you orange juice." I hold the glass up to his head. He sits up on the couch.

"What are we even doing today?' He asks whilst taking a sip of juice.

"Good question, ill go ask Blondie." I say getting up and walking back into the kitchen.

"So what are we doing today?" I ask.

"Well it might sound boring to you but we are going shopping!" She says with a squeal.

Oh not, its sort of selfish but what if a fan finds us? What about Alex? I know that he doesn't want to hide it any more so he didn't bring any long sleeve shirts, and what about Brook, the time that I am here is for her so when a fan comes up and asks for an autograph and what ever else I cant deny them that, I'm not a complete asshole they devote time to listen to our music. If I were her I would not feel special. We can fix Alex's problem by just getting a new shirt at the first store that we go to but I will have to tell Brook about the whole situation. Alex walks in to the kitchen.

"Actually shopping sounds fine," I look at Alex."I know that you were looking for a new shirt." I say glancing at his wrist.

"Yeah I was." He said with a twitchy smile then walked to the bathroom leaving me to feel like the bad guy.

"Good, this means bonding time for all of us!" She seems excited. Wow she is really a happy person. I hear the wheelchairs squeaky wheels before I see Brook.

"Really, shopping?!" She yells at her sister.

"Yes shopping, you cant wear sweats for lets see." She counts on her fingers. "A little over 6 weeks." She speaks to the pan of eggs now. 

"Why not? Its not like I'm going anywhere." She folds he arms then wheels herself to the table. She looks really hurt by what her sister is trying to do so I try and go comfort her but her sister stops me with her hand.

"Can you get me some plates?" So I do and I serve every one before I sit down and eat, and by that time everyone is done eating and go to get ready for our shopping trip.

"I'm sorry, I can tell that you don't want to shop." I turn to face her.

"Its not your fault. Its mine." She says while starring off into space.

"How?" I ask then getting the answer after I blurt it out.

"Well I did do this to myself." She gestures with her one hand that isn't in a sling. She looks at my face and says something before I get an I'm sorry out.

"Don't say it, this way at least we are getting somewhere." She looks at me with sad eyes, which are the only eyes that I know from her. I am determined to change that today, even if its just for a second I want to see her haappy eyes.

"Hey um when we go I- there-..." I get cut off by her sister jingling her keys in front of our eyes.

"You can tell me in the car." She says pulling out from the table. I finally see her outfit for the day, a really short skirt that she keeps tugging at and a blink 182 shirt. I really do not like the skirt but I like the top which I bet she fought Dillion for. I quickly change and run to the door where everyone was waiting for me.

"So who is going to carry Brook?" Blondie looks at Alex, Dillion, and me. They all look down at the ground so i volunteer, I brought her up so I guess I can come up with the muscles to bring her back down. I pick her up and try to adjust her skirt under my hand so it wont show anything.

"I really don't like this skirt on you." I tell her trying to lighten the mood after we are down the three flights of stairs, I almost fell a lot.

"Why, you think the guys will be chasing after me today?" She giggles and I look down and see her squinty happy eyes.

Well that was easier than I thought, today will be a breeze.

"Don't worry I don't like it either." She says tugging at it again before I put her in her sisters car. Me and Alex follow them to the mall in my car that we drove down here with.

"Alex I didn't mean to say it like that." I tell him knowing that he is still upset about it. "I was just thinking ahead, I didn't know if you wanted fans to know yet and odds are we are going to meet a few today." I explain.

"Well you are right I don't want them to know yet. But while we are on that subject when should we tell them." He asks.

"Alex this is not a we thing, I mean I got your back but this is all you dude. You have to decide when you want the kids to know, I'm sure they will understand and if you don't decide to tell them for a year or two or even more I am fine with that." I tell him.

" I want to formally tell them, I don't want it to be in a random video, I want them to all know at the same time so that it is fair, I don't want them to be mad if someone else knows before them. I need to think about it a little more on how that will happen." He says as we pull into the mall. I give him my jacket so no one sees the bandage as we walk in.

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