little man child will stop talking to me for days
because i am unsure
if i want to hook up with him.
little man child will feign empathy
when i tell him that most boys expect sexual favors
and i don't want to promise him anything.
i don't want to lead him on
and i am terrified he might try something.
little man child tells me his friend was assaulted recently
so he knows exactly how i feel.
"being sexually assault almost kills a person"
little man child will get mad at me because i feel this way;
i died when the innocent girl i was murdered.
i will never be her again,
she lays in a coffins shaped hole
located in my heart.
little man child will tell me im illogical for mourning her death.
little man child will tell me that he is unsure on how i am a victim,
"I don't know how, you're a survivor so i guess you're entitled to talking about it how you please but it was a weird way to say that"
little man child wants to know what happened to me.
does he even believe me?
little man child is upset with my story because now he is uncomfortable,
as if being violently sexually assaulted multiple times was comfortable.
as if being told that mourning the death of my innocence is wrong is comfortable.
little man child has an ego the size of the whole in my heart.
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the night the stars fell - poetry collection
PoetryPLEASE READ THE CONTENT WARNINGS this poetry collection includes themes and descriptions of: sexual violence/assault/harassment PTSD hallucinations depression anxiety self harm disordered eating in my experience feeling seen through works of writ...
