Born ready -terror twins fanfic-

Chapter 34. The video

Sideswipe was showering and Sunstreaker was still asleep. I let out the dog and when I got back, Sunstreaker was awake. He looked at me while holding his head. 'Morning, sunshine,' I joked to break the ice. 'Ugh, very funny,' he muttered. I walked up to him and sat beside him. 'Let me clean that up.' I got up and grabbed a wet cloth, gently cleaning up the scratches. 'Thank you,' he mumbled and leaned his head on my chest. I gently rubbed his head. 'Nice ring,' he said, grasping my hand. 'Sideswipe gave it you I assume?' He asked. 'Yeah, he did.' I got up, 'breakfast?' Sunstreaker gave a small nod.

Sideswipe strode in and kissed my lips. 'Morning, babe.' I smiled while he turned towards Sunstreaker. He helped him on his feet and sat him down at the table. Sideswipe walked up to me, wrapping his arms around my waist and buried his face in my neck. 'Talk to him,' I mumbled. He kissed my neck and grabbed something to drink for the both of them. I grabbed two aspirines and handed them to Sideswipe.

((Sideswipe's P.O.V))
I sat down next my twin. 'Thank you,' he mumbled and grabbed the aspirines and glass from me. I watched him swallow them. 'What are you doing, Sunstreaker?' I asked. He looked down at the table. 'You're drunk, you're a mess and you smell like vomit and pee,' I snapped. He ran his hand through his hair. 'I need you, okay!'

'You ruined it, Sunstreaker. I warned you and you ignored it,' I said. 'I just miss you so much. I know I ruined it, I just can't live without you. The thought that I lost you drove me crazy and made realize what I had done. Can you please give me a change? I am willing to do everything. Don't make me lose you again,' he said. 'First, you need food and a bath because you smell horrible,' I said. Merope handed me and Sunny a plate. He ate like he hadn't aten for months.

After breakfast, I helped my still drunken twin brother upstairs. He was barely able to keep standing. I sat him down on the toilet seat for a moment. I turned to turn on the water as my brother broke down in tears. I snapped my head towards him. 'Sunstreaker...' I touched his shoulder before crouching down. 'I am sorry. I am so sorry for everything, Sideswipe. I don't hate her, I am only jealous. You always get the sweet femmes and no one wants me. Not even my own mother... I just want someone to love me too and seeing you be happy drives me crazy because I can't get it. I hated Merope for loving you so much. I was scared to lose you and I was scared that once you would fully commit to her, I would be alone.'

I wiped some tears from his cheek. 'You tried to kill her, twice,' I said. 'Because she loves you more than she loves me and I would lose you. I can't lose my only family,' I said. I sighed and kissed his forehead. 'I messed up and I know but please, don't sent me back to Washington DC just yet. I want to make things right between us again... and to Merope,' he said. 'I will talk to her about it... you take a shower first, alright?' He nodded. I helped him remove his his clothing and took it with me. 'You're going to be fine?' I asked as I watched him stumble. 'Y-yeah.'

I wasn't really convinced, but let go find Merope. 'Can you wash his clothing?' She nodded and took it from me. 'He, regret what he did and wants to make things right. He wants to stay for a couple of days,' I said while leaning against the doorway. Merope crouched down and pushed everything in the wasmachine. 'He's your twin brother, Sideswipe. Give him a change. I really believe he regret his actions,' she said. 'Alright, but one mistake and he's back on the streets,' I warned. Merope nodded and got up as she started the wasmachine, kissing my lips. 'I'll make the guest room ready for him. We can't let him sleep on the couch,' she said and passed me.

I walked into the bathroom. Like I predicted, Sunstreaker laid on the ground. 'Bro? You're okay?' He groaned. I sighed and helped him sit against the wall. 'Dude you're still drunk,' I mocked. I grabbed the shampoo and washed his hair and body. My eye fell on a still healing wound he had just above his abs. 'What happened here?' I asked, tapping softly on it. 'I did it to myself. Ratchet stitched me up, but it's still healing,' He slurred. I turned off the water and hoisted him up. I dried him and pushed him towards the guest room. 'Sit down here,' I said, turning around. Merope already strode in with some clothes. Sunstreaker glanced at her. 'Can I talk to him?' She asked. I gave a small nod and left.

((Sunstreaker's P.O.V))
Merope shut the door and approached. She grabbed the towel and dried my hair. 'I thought I was able to talk you out of it,' I said. 'The decision was already made,' she replied without looking at me. She grabbed a shirt she brought alone and helped me pull it on. 'Do you think you can forgive me?' I asked. She shrugged, 'I don't necessarily hate you. I did at the beginning but... when you told me you were jealous. Something snapped inside of me. Sideswipe was sad about it too, you know.'

'He was?' She handed me the boxershorts. She held me in place as I pulled it on. 'Yup.' She handed me Sideswipe's pants. 'Why did you never try to be my friend if you wanted that so badly?' She asked. She sat back down and patted the spot beside me. 'Sideswipe doesn't know, no one does, alright?' I asked. She sat beside me and nodded. 'We just fought the battle of Kaon. We were all exhausted and we were resting. We had a huge ship called 'the ark'. Mirage made it possible that I was invisible for the Decepticons. So we were save for the time being. At the ark, there were mechs but also quite a lot of femmes. Sideswipe had a femme he was talking to a lot. I didn't think too much of it. I thought they were just friends. Later turned out they weren't 'just friends' and he hadn't told me about it. One day, it was around the evening. Most bots were resting because they were exhausted. Sideswipe introduced me to the female. I liked her, she was charming and sweet. She had a brother as well. I was trying so hard to impress her and it seemed to work. She flirted with me the entire evening and asked me to come with her. I never had anyone asking me to come so I was really excited. I never had luck before. I am different and especially with my history as gladiator people feared me. I wasn't always like this... I used to be like Sideswipe. I was friendly, I loved to interact with people, but no one wanted to hang out with me because they were scared.'

I fiddled with my hands before glancing at Merope. 'Sideswipe and I were brothers of mischief and that's how we got the name 'terror twins' but Sideswipe has always been the one who was loved. He wasn't as rough and aggressive on the battlefield as I could be. He soared lives and I didn't because I got tortured for sparing a live. Sideswipe doesn't know about that either. The femme, Midnight was her name tool me to her room and seduced me. I asked her if we could continue and she replied with a flirty reply that it was okay. I started to take off my armor but stopped as I noticed she didn't. Her brother came him and I hadn't seen or heard it. He grabbed me and started to beat me up. I had no time to react. He tied me up in a painful position and raped me. He took advantage of me the entire night. Midnight was only laughing and taking photos and video's while I was in so much pain.'

I violently wiped a tear off my cheek. Merope rubbed my back. 'I changed after that, a defense to keep people away from me. I have been hurt so many times...' I grabbed my phone. 'I have connected the phone with my bipedal mode...' I turned the phone towards her. 'This is what happened that night.' She took my phone. Horror was splattered all over her face and she turned the phone off after a few minutes. I didn't really trust femmes anymore. The only mech on Cybertron without a femme... that's the status I had and I would always keep. I was scared, when Sideswipe met you. Now you know the other reason as well why I never wanted to talk to you, but it didn't mean I didn't mean I hated you,' I said.

She hugged me. She climbed on my lap and hugged me. 'Everything is gonna be okay, Sunstreaker. You don't have to suffer anymore. If you just took the effort to know you would know I am not like that femme or any other girl you've met for so far,' she said. 'It happened over and over again,' I snorted. She gently laid me down and covered me up. 'It's gonna be okay.' She kissed my forehead. She stayed with me until I fell asleep.