HER Tearful Heart - Zauren

10 - Be Here...

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LAUREN'S POV

I got in my bunk. If you know how much I regret what I just did... I mean, not fully, but the way I, in somehow, treated Zayn was so stupid. But they were pushing my buttons I'm so tired of people making couples with me and everybody. I know the girls and the boys didn't mean to come off bad but people that don't know me get that in the wrong way, they call me all this names that in no way I should be called. I'm just sick of it. And to add to it, I don't know but, I still have feelings for Luis... I know I'm so damn dumb, all the things he has done and I'm still here caring for him, but I can't just stop loving him in one day. Although it's not as strong as it was... I got them and I just want them to leave, I don't wanna be the dumb girl who goes back to her boyfriend everytime, but I feeling like I'm not in control of my heart, Luis was my first in everything, first boyfriend, first on holding hands, first kiss, first ... He was the first, even though that wasn't supposed to happen, at least that soon...
I just gotta forget him, he has forgotten me clearly, so why can't I? But you know what I'll do it, I'll have got to damn do it! Whipping my tears away, that I didn't knew were coming down, I Walked towards the bus lounge, I grabbed my phone and searched for Luis' contact. Before I knew it I was calling him.

Luis: Hey babe, I knew you wouldn't ignore me forever, which by the way, will not turn good, as you know!

Lauren: Luis shut up! Just shut up and listen to me, I'm done with you, I'm done with you're freaking games, I'm done with you constantly abusing me, not only physically but also psicologicly, I'm done with it and I'm so damn done with you! Don't come near me anymore, don't call me, don't text! Nothing! I can't deal with you anymore...

Tears started streaming down my face all over again.
But then I heard something that boiled me up inside. I'm so angry right now! He is laughing at all I just said... Fucking unbelievable fuck!

Lauren: why are you laughing? Stop laughing, I hate you so much! Ugh!

Luis: oh Lauren, Lauren, Lauren, my dear Lauren. You clearly have been gone for a long time. You think you can go away so easly? Huh?... Oh, you're wrong. So FUCKING WRONG! YOU KNOW how this is and YOU KNOW you will not stop dating me when you want, and YOU KNOW, that I'll beat the shit out of you if you dump me and YOU SO DAMN WELL FREAKING KNOW... Oh my sweet Lauren... You know, I'm in charge... You slut.

Beep beep beep beep...

ZAYN'S POV

They all looked at me. Shocked, as I was, but even more, I was hurt with the harshness of her words. I know that she probably didn't mean it, but, well, she could've been sweeter? I don't know, what I know is that she left here way too transtorned, and I want to see how she is, and apologise for what this monkeys just did. I understand her in a way. All this break up thing, is bringing her down, and ship her with other people is not easy either. She can't just jump into a relationship when she just got out of one... I mean n-not that I-I want a relationaship with, hm, her, we're friends, simply friends.
"Well... That was... Intense!" Harry said
"Yeah! I don't ever wanna get mad at that girl again, damn, the sass!" Louis added
Then they looked at me again, as if waiting for me to say something.
"Ahm I'm just gonna see how she is" I said, getting up
"I think you should really let her cool off, cause she's pretty mad bro, I'm scared man!" Niall said, while going behind Liam to hide, who extended his hand as if protecting him
The girls laughed it off as well as the boys, making me walk further into the bunks area. But when I got to Lauren's bunk, no one was there.
As so, I went in direction to the lounge, to see if she was there.
As I walked there, all I saw was Lauren, crying.
I wanted to get there and hug her to and get why she was crying, but I saw her on the phone. So I left the door a bit open and listened to her conversation:
Luis shut up! Just shut up and listen to me, I'm done with you, I'm done with you're freaking games, I'm done with you constantly abusing me, not only physically but also psicologicly, I'm done with it and I'm so damn done with you! Don't come near me anymore, don't call me, don't text! Nothing! I can't deal with you anymore...

Luis!? She's talking to Luis!? No wonder why she's crying.
More and more tears came streaming down her face I just wanna go there...

Why are you laughing? Stop laughing, I hate you so much! Ugh!

She kept crying, whipping her tears harshly.
Her face expression changed. Before she was crying out of anger, but now, she-she's sad and looks terrefied... This can't be good.
Her phone slide down her hand, landing on the floor. She curled up in a corner, arms hugging her legs and face down on her knees, sobbing frantacly.
Instanly I opened the door and ran to her side, bringing her back to my chest, while stroking her hair. Her hands found their way to my torso and she gripped on them tightly as if if she'd let go, her world would collapse. I embraced her in my arms while whispering in her ear "shhh, it's gonna be alright, it's gonna be alright, shhh, I'm here". Her sobs engufeld my shirt, while I rocked her back amd foward.
After a while, she calmed down. Pulling away from my embrace. She looked down, crossing her legs.
I stared at her for a bit. The tears were still falling from her eyes, but now silently.
"Lauren?"
She didn't look up
"Hey, look at me, please"
Slowly, she pulled up her head, but looking at the wall instead of me
"Can you tell me what happened?"
I said while puting a piece of her hair behind her ear.
She nodded her head. Taking a big breath, she now looked at me.
"It was Luis... I called him"
The tears weren't stoping, but she still wouldn't whipe them away. I stayed still, just watching her speak.
"I told him I... I to-told him I di-didn't want to-to be with him anymore" she said, whispering the last part.
"I told him I was sick of him, I told him I didn't want to be with him, I told him, I told him..." her sobs came back, making her voice get weaker and weaker. I grabbed her hand and squeezed it, giving her strenght to continue.
"I-I told him all he had done to me, but he... He just laughed at me, like I had just told him a joke, and..." she started sobing harder, she couldn't speak, her brething was getting heavier and heavier.
"Hey hey, Lauren, shhh calm down, hey, calm down" I said while squeezing her hand "hey, you're ok, you'll be fine ok!? I'm here don't worry, you're all good"
"No... No you-you don't understand, you don't I'm not gonna be ok, he-he is going to-to hurt me-I'm a slut, he says I'm a-a slut" she said, having difficulty to breath.
"No Lauren he won't, I'll be here for you, he won't touch you don't worry, you're not a slut, you hear me? You're not, breath, c'mon" I said.
"Hey look at my eyes" she did as told "breath, shhh, breath, you're ok" I told her, now puting my hands on her cheeks, stroking them.
Her breathing got slower, her eyes still on mine, her tears still falling down. I hugged her again after pulling her up.
"Come sit down, you don't have to tell me the rest if you don't want to"
She shook her head, siting on the lounge sofa.
"I want to tell, cause I'm scared Z, I'm so scared, cause he said he wasn't going to let me go and that I was his and that if I tried to break up with him he'd beat the shit outta me, I'm scared, I know him, he'll hurt me, he'll hurt me so much, I don't know what to do" She said, whipping at her tears.
"He said what!? He'll never touch a bit of you! Never again! I won't let him touch, nor the boys or the girls, if he comes near you I swear I'll kill him" I said with my fists closed boiling up with anger, who does that guy think he is? I'll kill him if he comes here!
Lauren noticed my state and as so, she put her small hands on mine trying to calm me down.
"Thank you" she whispered.
"I won't let him touch you, I'll be here" I whispered back, whipping away her cascading tears.

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