HER Tearful Heart - Zauren

30 - Laughter session...

I just got the news today, that next week we'll fly back to my home town: 305 Miami!
I'm so happy that I'll be back to see my dad, my siblings, my mama, and my friends. I always get so anxious to get back and be able to spend a little time with them.
But this time around, I'm not feeling as excited as all the other times. The reason being, and as always: Luis.

Ever since my break down last week, Zayn, the girls and the rest of the boys, have been extra careful and also preoccupied with me. They're always checking on me and asking if I'm ok... I-I do understand why they're doing that but sometimes it gets a bit annoying. And this is exactly why I hate crying or bringing attention to me around people. I just feel like now they pity me, cause every freaking time they look at me, they smile apologetically and it annoys the crap out of me, cause I'm not a little girl. I can take care of myself, I am a women who's capable of pulling this type of shit through, I just don't want them to feel like they have to be sorry every time they look at me, because this happened to me. Ugh. I hate having break downs.

I'm currently at my hotel room-well, we all are to be honest. On our own that is.
We're just each taking a few minutes to each other, just so we can have a little peace after the 48 tiring hours we've been up with only 4 hours of sleep. I'm not that tired cause I'm used to being awake for long times, so I'm currently on tumblr, and listening to Khelani on my iPhone.
I hear a knock on the door, making me look at it.

"Hey Laurenza!" I hear Louis and Harry saying as they come into my room.

"Hey boys! How are you?" I sit up on the bed as they sit themselves on the end of the bed.

"Really really fine!" Louis says as Harry sits on his lap. Louis leans his head forward onto Harry's back, wrapping his arms around his friend's torso. "How about you?" He asks.

"I'm really really fine too!" I reply giggling at their position.

"Ok, we're here to talk business." Harry says looking at me.

"What business?" I ask squinting my eyes at their choice of words.

"Well, you see, this boy over here has the major crush on Camila as you probably know."

"Yep." I nod smiling at Harry.

"Yeah, and we thought Camila had too, but then a few weeks ago happened and lover boy is sad."

I pout leaning my head to the side.

"So basically, we want to know if you know what's going on with her."

"Well, to be honest with you guys, I have no fucking idea. I seriously have tried talking to her and getting to know what's bothering her mind, but she won't tell me. Also with that whole hanging out with Michael all the time, I really can't get a hold of her. Every time I do find her she just makes an excuse and runs away. But what I can tell you is that she isn't as happy, as she used to. I don't know if it's because she's not as close to us as she was before and that's upsetting her or because there's something going on with her and Michael. I-I don't know."

"Do you think he's doing something to her?" He frowns, squinting his eyes.

"What? No! No... I mean... No. I don't think so. Camila would tell me. She would. I don't think it's that, don't worry." I shake my head actually wondering if it was something like that.

"Oh but that's something he can't do, seeing as all he thinks about is, drum rolls please: Camila Cabello!" He says emphasizing Camila's name.

"Aww, that's cute. But really don't worry, I'll talk to her, I'll find a way to get her to spill the beans. I got ya buddy!" I say, winking at him.