HER Tearful Heart - Zauren

11 - Anytime you need a friend...

A.N.: hey muffins, how are ya? Sorry for keepin' you waiting, I have school and I'm going to have my exams this year so I'm a little busy studying but I'll always try to update whenever I can. love you xoxo muffins.

Zayn's POV

"Lauren? Does any of the girls know of Luis, I mean, of what Luis has done to you, does annybody know this?"

"No, no and nobody can know, this-this is complicated Zayn, they already have to deal with my shit everyday, I don't want them worrying about me. I know how they are, they-they, they can't know, please don't tell them!" Lauren begged

"ok, ok, Laurend don't worry I won't tell, but at sometime they'll have to know, you have to press charges against him, what he does, it shouldn't be done to anybody, you have to understan-"

"No Zayn, no, I'll stay away from him as much as I can, but I don't want to get him or anybody else in problems. And you don't know what he'll do if I do that"

"He won't do anything cause you'll have people by your side Lauren, you hav-"

"No Zayn, you've never been with him , you never felt the pain that he's put me through, so don't say what I have to do! I've ben through hell this past years, I've felt scared, I still feel and I don't think I'll ever stop feeling scared, always looking over my shoulder to see if he's there to 'punish' me for something I did, or didn't do, so please just drop this!"

And she went out the door.

Lauren's POV

I'm done, I'm sick, I want to get out of here, I don't wanna be here anymore. I just want to run away and hide in somewhere. Somewhere far from here and everybody.

I knew I shouldn't have told him. Am I dumb!? I mean trust a guy who I'd know for a little time, a guy who brought back my panic attacks, a guy who-ugh. But he helped me, he helped me and now he just wants to tell everybody MY secret. That one thing that I'm trying to hide from everybody HE decides he wants to tell the girls and the police!?

No I can't Luis wil kill me, he'll beat me and then kill me I don't want to suffer anymore I don't want to. I'm so hurt... I don't think I'll ever get through with this. Even if I want to, I can't... there was so. much. I'm tired. This is draining me out completly. I don't even know who I am anymore. I don't think anybody knows who I am anymore.

"Lauren?" I think Dinah asked.

Rubbing my sleepy and I'm sure red puffy eyes I looked tiredly at her. "hey, what?"

"We have to go to meet and greet" she said looking concerned

"Ok, let me just wash my face, has everybody else left already?"

"Yeah, they all out. Before we go I wanna talk to you. Go wash your face"

"O-k" I said hesitantly.

Opening up the tap I washed my face and looked at myself in the mirror. God I look awfull.

"What is it that you wanna talk about?" I asked going out the bathroom while drying my hands on my jeans.

"Lauren I want you to be honest with me. I want to know what's wrong with you. And don't give me that all 'it's nothing' crap I want the truth. And don't worry about reharsals, I just called saying we'd be a late. Now tell me"

Should I tell her... should I trust her...

"You can trust me Lauren, c'mon" she said as if she just read my mind

"I know Dinah, it's just that-it's to hard to tell you this, cause this is serious, I don't even... Shit" and I got into a fit of crying. I can't think of it without crying. God now she's going to worry even more!