HER Tearful Heart - Zauren

21 - Did it for you...

It's been one week since our little dispute with the guys' management. Zayn hasn't been going to any of the meetings set for the boys. Even if there's people coming for him, he always finds a way to get away from it.

This is bad for him. I can't help but feel like this is all my fault. I mean, they don't want us to date, because apparently I'm ruinning his image, so it is my fault. This is all so messed up, if there was a way this all could just go away.

Maybe I should talk to their management. See if they forget that idea. If they let us be happy together. I really don't want to break up with him. We're way too happy and too engaged in our relationship to just let everything fall a part because of those little fuckers.

"What are you thinking about?" He asks. We're currently on my bunk holding each others arms and talking occasionally. 

He talks. I talk. And then we stay silent for long bits, all because I can't stop talking about it.

"Nothing." I say. I look up and peck his chin and then lay my head back on his chest again.

"I know you're thinking about something. You're not talking. Did you forget that you're my  favourite blabber?" He asks.
I turn around to face him and frown.

"Favourite? I thought I was the only one!" I pout.

"Nah! I have a couple of girls I call blabber too. Don't flatter yourself!" He replies cheekly.

I gasp and he laughs making me giggle.

"Idiot!" I say biting his cheek.

"Ouch! That hurt ok?" He chuckles.

"I don't care." I say leaving the bunk.

I need to talk to his management right now. I just can't keep this shit on my head.

"Where you going?" He asks following me to the front of the bus.

"WHERE YOU GOING? WHERE YOU TRYNNA GO? WHERE YOU GOING? WHERE YOU TRYNNA GO? LOLO! LOLO!" Camila and Dinah sing as he says it.

I giggle and shook my head.

"Dorks..." I pick up my phone and text Dinah without Zayn seeing. I need him to stay with the boys for a bit.

L: I need Zayn to go now. I'll explain later. I need to talk to somebody without him knowing. Help me!

She takes a glance at me. A confused expression takes over her features.

"Zayn. Uhm, Liam texted me, he said he needed your help with something, I don't know. You should probably check it out!" She says uncertain of her words.

I hate making people lie for me, but if I told Zayn I'm sure he'd go ballistic on me and wouldn't let me go at all.

"Alright. I'll be back in a bit." He says kissingmy lips and heading out. I love his kisses so much. Everytime we kiss, there's just this wave that goes through my heart and my whole body that makes me crave for more... 

The tought of it makes me blush. Zayn and I've never had anything sexual, we usually just kiss and make out. I wonder if he's ever thought about making love to me, or if he's tired of waiting for me to give my everything to him. 

I walk towards the door to do the leave after a  little bit, but Dinah interrupts my actions.

"Where you going?" She asks.