HER Tearful Heart - Zauren

15 - So Happy...

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LAUREN'S POV

He cupped my face with his large hands staring at my eyes.

"I will never, ever leave you. If I'm saying this is because I really want to be with you. I want you to trust me."

You have to learn how to trust your heart to Zayn.

But I do. I trusted him with my deepest secret. Something I'd never told anybody. I trusted him.

"I do Zayn... I do"

He shook his head no, looking at my eyes.

"No... I want to trust my heart. To trust your heart to me..."

"It's not as easy as you put it Zayn, I-I'm scared.... I'm so scared, Luis was m-my first boyfriend, everything I know about 'dating' is what-what he did to me. I didn't feel as loved as I thought I felt. I-I loved him so much and so hard th-that I got even blind to see that what he did to me was wr-wrong. and that's why I'm scrared. I'm scared that this will all be back again."

"You don't have to be scared by me. I know this isn't easy for you, that you're scared to have feelings for someone again, but I'm here to help you get through it. I want to hold your hand and jump every obstacle that comes through with you.  I want to help you to be yourself again. Just please let me in Lauren." Zayn says while whipping away the endless tears that were falling from my eyes.

"I want to. But it's just that the memories will always be there and you'll get sick of me an-"

"Lauren listen to me! I'm telling you I'm not gonna hurt you, at least purposefully, in any way. I'm not gonna be there to make bad comments about your appearence or hit you for every little stupid thing you say, you know why? Cause those supposed "stupid" things aren't stupid for me. Those are the things that'll help our relatipnship work and get better. I just want you to try. Cause I really, really like you Lauren. and I'm not gonna give up"
I stared into his eyes. Nothing but thruth, love, and fear came through them.

"I really like you too. And I... I do... I mean, I want to try..." I said picking at my nails while staring at them on my lap.

He put his finger under my chin and looked at me smiling.

"You-You do!?" he exclaimed, a bit of in a asking way.

I nodded biting my lip, now looking at him. He seemed happy. Happy that I said yes to being with him and that makes feel good about it even more sure that I do want to be with him. I feel quite releived.

"This sound like a proposal" I said giggling as he joined me "but yeah, I do, I want to try but you'll have to be patient with me, I'm quite the piece"

"Oh I know that!" he said in cocky way.

"Hey! Don't push it Malik!" I said swatting his arm and laughing along with him.

"So..." he said.

"So...?" I know what's the next step and I'm actualy a bit, scared? I don't know. I thinks he sees the hesitation in my eyes as in the place of ... Kissing me... Well, he hugs me. Really tight. I needed that. So I hugged back. Pushing all my fears behind me.

"Thank you. Thank you so much" I whispered over his shoulder.

"Thank YOU" he said back.

I pulled a part and after staring at his eyes for a bit... I did it...

I kissed him.

A slow, loving, passionate kiss. He was hesitante at first but then got into it, sofly and carefully kisisng my lips that were now against his and wrapping his arms around my waist as I put mine over his shoulders, locking my hands behind his neck.
It was like the perfect first, despite not being the first one. But that's how I felt.

We pulled a part and pressed our foreheads together, staring lovingly at each other... That until... My phone started ringing.

"It's Dinah" I said smiling at him and pressing the phone to my ear.

L: "Hello?"

D: Laur, you and Zayn come! M&g is almost starting.

L: Ok, we'll be right there.

I said. Zayn came behing me and put his arms around my waist once again, leaning his chin on my shoulder and kissing my cheeks.
I smiled. I genuinly smiled.

D: Ok, we need to talk later Laur. I'm hearing some things and I'm liking the sound of it! Get some Lauren!

I giggled and kissed Zayn's left cheek.

L: Ok Dinah. Bye!

And I hung up with a smile on my face.

"I guess we have to thank Dinah later..." he said.

"Yup! But now, we have to go. They're waiting for us."

"We have to go? Now?" he said playfully pouting.

"Yes now and stop with that!" I said covering my eyes with my arms.

"Ok." I uncovered my eyes and he was still doing it.

"Stop!" I giggled and covered my eyes back again.

"Ok, ok I stoped now... Really." he said grabbing my arms and spreading them a part. Then he kissed me again. Slowly but with so much love and passion. I'm glad I'm trying things with him. So glad.

"We have to go now." I said.

"Ok... Let's go."
He grabbed my hands and we laced fingers, but just then I remembered.

"Ahm... Zayn... We shouldn't... Hold hands, I mean we should, ahm, wait, because of the guys and... Management..."

"Oh, ok..." he said somewhat disappointed.

Damn it.

"I'm sorry, I don't want you to feel bad, I just thin-" and he cut me off pressing his lips to mine. Wow.

"I understand, you don't have to worry. Let's go?" he said smiling.

I blushed and lowered my head nodding.

"Let's go."

"Ladies first"

"What a gentleman"

~m&g~

As soon as we got to the the place where we were going to do m&g I spotted Dinah, and the minute she saw me qe both ran to each other and hugged.

"OH MY GOD! MY LAURINAH FEELS! I'M SO DEAD, MOMS!" A girl yelled making us both laugh.

So cute.

"Thank you Dinah!" I told her kissing her cheek.

"Oh My God, how did it go?"

"Shshsh! But... We're, I think we're dating..." I blushed.

"Oh my God, I'n so happy for you! Go Zauren!" he said hugging me again.

"I'll tell you everything later, just don't tell the girls yet, I still want to talk to Zayn before"

"Oh ok! My baby Lauren is growing up!" she said pinching my cheeks.

"Oh, shut up, I'm older then you, ah!"

"Girl, shush yo mouth!" she said laughing as we walked closer to where the girls were.

Zayn was with the boys now. As  I looked at him I noticed he was already looking at me, smiling. I blushed and smiled too.

I'm so happy.

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