HER Tearful Heart - Zauren

14 - Trust...

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LAUREN'S POV

You have to learn how to trust your heart to Zayn.

Dinah said. We were both now on the bus, but I was on my bunk. Thinking.

You have to learn how to trust your heart to Zayn.

That's all I've been thinking and silently crying about.
I have trust issues since Luis came into my life. I can't trust any boy that comes into may way unless he's close family or gay. I just can't simply let go of the fact that for months I was abused, insulted and humiliated. What if theres's more boys like him, sweet and caring at the begining but then... Then treat me like shit. What if Zayn's like that... He doesn't seem like that. He cares about me in a way no one ever did. He protects and tries to make sure I'm ok. He is there for me.

"Lolo?" I heard. Must be Camila.
Shoving the curtains of my bunk away I replied:

"Hey Camila."

"What's wrong? Why are you in here? Hiding?" She asked. Her eyes were glistining. She must be wanting to cry. I hope it's not because of me.

"Nothing, I'm fine, don't worry" I smiled trying to give her that impression. But I failed.

"No, you're not. You didn't even call me Camz. You only don't call me Camz when something's wrong, you can tell me, you know that!" and she starts crying.

"Camz..." and I started crying too.

"Can I come in?" she said pointing to the bunk. Making my way over to the back of it so I could give her space she got in and put her arms around my torso as I put mine around her arms.

"There's just things I can't say. I want to tell you and share with you my feelings but I just can't. But you don't have to worry cause I'm fine."

"No you're not. And I get that you don't want to tell me but don't walk away from us. I've come to learn from a very intelligent and amazing girl that in times like this, the best thing to do is to get surrounded by friends so they can at least make you smile."

I chuckled a bit.

"That's right. But this is just who I am Camz. I pull myself away from people that love me the most when I feel like this because I-I sometimes need time to think on my own."

"And that's good. But not all the time. You overthink things a bit too much. Share it with us, let it all out. We won't judge you. We will support you and always have you're back Lolo. Know that and stick it to your thick head of yours" she said, giggling at the end and I joined her.

"I know. I'll try, and thank you... Thank you so much Camz. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have you girls by my side. Thank you."

"Love you"

"Love you too" I said. Squeezing her in our 'hug' and kissing her hair.

"Camila...?" I asked.

"Lauren...?" she asked now lifting her head up from my chest.

"What's up with you and Harry?" I asked, slowly trying to get a reaction or answer from her.

"Harry... I think I like him Lauren... But don't tell anybody" she said with her already red cheeks.

"Aww Camz! That's so cute! How come you didn't tell me before?"

"I'm sorry it was just that... I wasn't sure if I did like him or if it was just that thing from the begining where I was a Directioner. And I still am, but it's different. I think I really like him for a bit now..."