New Beginnings

Chp. 18

~Nastumi's POV~

I could hear loud banging noises and yelling coming from downstairs. I get up and slowly make my way down.

"Damn it, stop asking me to calm down!"

When I finally get to the bottom step, Suga is standing there breathing heavily with his fist in the wall. When he notices me standing there he quickly pulls his hand out of the wall and hides it from my view.

"Shit. Natsumi, I'm sorry."

I run over to him and grab his hand just to see his knuckles cut up and bleeding. I start crying cause I know he did it out of anger for me.

'This is all my fault.'

"It's nothing I-"

He starts but stops when I look up glaring at him. I pull him to the couch and push him down. He was about to say something else but I hold up my hand. I then point at him and then point down as if telling him to stay. I grab the first aid kit from the hallway closet and start patching him up. Everyone is looking shocked at how I'm handling Suga. When I was done I pulled out my phone and typed.

"PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF BETTER. WHAT IF YOU COULDN'T PLAY VOLLEYBALL ANYMORE BECAUSE YOU PUNCHED A DAMN WALL?!"

Reading it he gets angry all over again.

"Are you crazy! Who cares about my damn hand after what you just told me!" He yells back and he instantly covers his own mouth.

"Wait I didn't-"

I didn't wait to hear him. I just got up and left to go upstairs.

'I knew I should've kept my mouth shut.'

I slam the door and locked it. Sitting on my bed I sent a text to the team group chat.

'Hey, guys. I'm feeling tired, so I'm going to bed early. Make sure someone walks Ki home. Goodnight.'

A couple minutes later I hear a knock at my door.

"Sweetheart? Everyone is leaving now. Listen, I'm sorry for yelling ok? Please.... open the door."

I ignore him and he sighed.

"I'll be downstairs if you need me."

I waited for his footsteps to get quieter as he walked away from my door, before finally releasing all the pain I was feeling.

'I should keep my distance, maybe then he can go back to his normal life without my drama weighing him down.'

~~~

A few days after the argument I had with Suga, my mom and Kiyoko insisted I go with them and Suga to the police and finally tell my side of the story. Well, write my side of the story. I went into the room alone because I didn't want any one to know the details. It took almost an hour to settle all of the questions and details, but it felt like ages. After finishing up Suga, Kiyoko, and my mom were finally let back in. I kept my head down to keep them from seeing my red eyes. I could feel Suga staring at me the whole time, but I refused to look.

"Is everything finished?"

"Yes, ma'am. She was a trooper through out the whole process, but she must be worn out now. Thanks again for coming in to do the written statement. I know it took a lot of courage, and I promise we will arrest him very soon."

With a sigh, I gave Officer Tachibana a weak smile as he patted my back. To say I wasn't exhausted and highly emotional right now would be an understatement.

'I hope this will all be over soon.'

"Thank you officer. My daughter and I really do appreciate everything you've done so far."

"Its no problem ma'am. It's all a part of the job. You all be safe getting home."

"Thanks again."

We walked out of the conference room, and then stopped in the parking lot to part ways.

"Suga, do you mind bringing Natsumi home while I drop off Kiyoko?"

For a second our eyes met before he turned back to my mom to answer her.

"Sure."

"Thanks. I'll see you later sweetie."

"Bye NaNa."

I hugged them both and then gave them a short wave, as I walked with Suga to his car. He opened the door for me, and made sure I was settled before going to his side of the car.

'Just a few more minutes, and I'll be home. Just keep holding it in.'

As soon as we made it back to my house, I didn't wait for Suga to open the door. I ran to the front door unlocked it, and went straight to my room and locked the door. As much as I wanted to put on a brave face, I couldn't any more, and let the tears fall. Having to retell every single thing that happened, from the struggle leading all the way up to the "act" itself, was too much.

"Natsumi? Are you ok? Can I come in?"

"I just want to be alone right now."

"I see. I'll be here if you need me."

I laid down on my bed and sighed.

'First, I had to relive the worst day of my life, and now I've made Suga worry again. How can I keep my distance when he is always by my side in some way?'

It's been like this since the argument. He's still staying over and going to school from my house even though I've been avoiding him. I was angry at him for being so careless and injuring himself, but I was more mad at myself because I felt responsible. He still put me first even when I reprimanded him for being reckless, and he got angry on my behalf. He even sneaks in my room at night to sleep with me, and then he wakes up early to sneak right back out before I wake up, just so I won't have nightmares. No normal guy would do that for nothing in return. Shigeru made that point abundantly clear. There's always a catch, but with Suga, it feels different.

'Maybe I should try to fix things between us, but how?'