"Be a voice. Not an echo."
There were a few prominent parts in the letter. It was the part where Ivy wrote, "I always thought that I was not good enough for both of you. I felt like all the things I wanted to do was not meaningful for you. I am sorry for being such a disappointment."
I tried to hold on to my tears as I read these parts. Ivy's mom was crying and repeatedly said, "No. No..." She cupped her mouth, trying to stop herself from crying. I blinked my tears, not wanting to cry. I knew that it will be difficult for me to stop crying if I cried now.
I went up towards Ivy's parents. I handed the letter to Auntie Flora and held her hand tightly.
"Auntie... Please stop crying. I know it is heartbreaking to hear these words from Ivy. However, it is not a good thing to dwell in the past. It is not good for your health, auntie. I'm sure Ivy wouldn't want you to get sick." I said.
Auntie Flora looked at me, wiping her tears and replied, "Alannah, dear. Her letter was so heartbreaking to me. I... I.. didn't know she felt that way. It is my fault. I... I shouldn't...d-"
Auntie Flora stopped her words and cried loudly. I looked away for a second, trying not to show my tears. I looked up at Joshua and handed him the letter. I whispered to him, "Joshua, I think you should read this letter by your own. I think I don't have enough strength to read today."
I quickly grabbed my bag, and held Jeremy's hand for comfort. The three of us stood up and bid goodbye to Ivy's parents. The journey to home was so quiet and depressing.
Joshua already went home 15 minutes ago. Jeremy and I walked in silence. I was so focus in my thoughts and I did not aware of my surrounding. Jeremy shook my shoulder a few times. I looked at him in confuse.
"Hmm?" I furrowed my eyebrows.
Jeremy looked at me, held my hand tightly and said, "Alannah, please let me know if there is anything I can help. I am always here for you, darling."
I smiled weakly at him, replied, "Thank you, Jeremy. I'm thankful to have someone like you in my life."
The next day, I woke up late and got ready to visit Ivy. I made a promise to myself to visit her every day. I looked at the handwritten letter Ivy wrote for me. I did not open and read the letter yesterday. My mind was blank and my heart was in so much pain yesterday. So I decided to go to sleep as soon as I took a quick shower.
I texted Jeremy and Joshua in our group chat to inform that I will be visiting Ivy this afternoon. Both of them replied and agreed to meet up at the hospital in the afternoon.
I grabbed the letter and mumbled to myself, "Ivy, I'll read your letter soon." A part of me was curious to know what was inside the letter. Another part of me was scared to read this letter. I don't want to felt heartbroken and depressed again. It hurts seeing your best friend in this condition. It hurts seeing the person you care in pain and you cannot do anything to help them. It really hurts.
I walked out of my house and headed towards the hospital. 45 minutes later, I arrived at the hospital. Ivy parents visited her in the morning so they went home and will probably come back later in the evening.
I looked the time and headed towards the counter. "Good afternoon, I am here to visit a patient named Ivy Kim. There will be a total of 3 people visiting her this afternoon."
The nurse nodded her head and showed me the way to Ivy's hospital room. She then excused herself and I thanked her for her help. I opened the door slowly, observing the surrounding of the hospital room. It felt like a dejavu.
My eyes went watery when I recalled the moment where I previously visited Ivy in a different hospital before. Back then she was quite depressed and had to stay rested in a hospital for a few weeks. However, now her condition was worse. It has been a day since Ivy coma.
I went towards the chair near Ivy's bed and sat down. I wiped my tears and greeted her cheerfully. "Hi Ivy! It's me, Alannah. Joshua and Jeremy will be here soon. They stopped by at the florist to buy you some flowers."
I stopped for a second and continued my sentence, "You like flowers, right? White daisy! I wish you wake up soon and see the flowers they bought for you."
"Ivy, yesterday I accidentally saw your diary and... I read some of the diary entries. I also saw the handwritten letters you wrote for your parents, Joshua and I. I am sorry for invading your privacy."
I looked up, trying to refrain myself from crying. "To be honest, I didn't have the strength to read this letter. Well... after what happened yesterday.... It was such a shocking incident, right? We never would have expect this..."
