"Butterflies are only fragile when they forget they can fly."
The three of us chatted together. We talked about our daily lives and what we plan to do during the year-end holidays and New Year's Eve. Jeremy looked at me and we both turned to Joshua. I asked, "Joshua, do you want to celebrate New Year's Eve with us? We can hang out and visit Ivy too. It's great day to hang out and relax, right?" Joshua's eyes looked at me and Jeremy for a few seconds. He gave a smile and replied, "Thank you for being considerate guys but I think I am going to spend my time at home and visit Ivy. I really wish to celebrate New Year's Eve with her in future. " He then added, "You guys can contact me when you wanted to visit Ivy. We can go there together."
I gave a small nod, trying to brush away this sad atmosphere. I really don't want to let this atmosphere ruin Ivy's birthday. I quickly said, "Come on, let's eat our food and maybe sing a birthday song for Ivy. Well, not too loud though since we are in the hospital." The three of us sang the song softly which was loud enough for us to hear. As we done singing the song, Joshua kissed Ivy's forehead. It made me touched and I quickly wiped my heart. I mumbled to myself, "Ivy, please wake up soon. I really want you and Joshua to have more happy moments together."
We spent another hour at the hospital and I took a nap due to being sleepy. I did not get enough sleep nowadays. I am not sure what the reason is for this though. I told Jeremy that I would be laying down for just 30 minutes. Eventually my eyes started to get heavy and I felt drowsy. My mind felt at ease and before I know it, I was already in my dream land. I have not had any dream during my sleep for the past few weeks.
An hour later, I woke up from my dream. I felt that my cheeks were wet. I quickly wiped my cheeks slowly. I tried to recall my dream slowly in detailed. My heart started to hurt and I gasped for air as I sobbed loudly.
"Oh My God. Wh- What is this dream? I- I— "I croaked, not able to finish my sentence.
I sobbed loudly as I recalled every single details of the dream.
***** Flashback of the dream started*****
It was the first time that I dreamt of Ivy after her coma. It had been a while and I missed her a lot. That was why she probably in my dream. The dream was still fresh in my mind. Ivy and I were talking for a long time. Just like the olden days. Ivy looked so pretty just like she usually does. The smile on her face and she looked so peaceful in my dream. However, there was a sentence that stuck in my head and it made me cry.
"Alannah, please don't cry. Don't cry because of me. I think... I am going to stay here. I don't feel like coming back and face it..."
I furrowed my eyebrows and asked her, "Stay where? Wh- What do you mean? Ivy!"
Ivy gave me a warm smile and she turned away from me. I held on her hand, trying to ask her another question, "Iv- Ivy hold on. Wait- wait a second." Ivy let go of my hand and replied, "Sorry bestie, I have to go now. I –"
I wailed and hit my chest, "Wh-Where are you going! Iv- Ivy!"
My dream was interrupted due to my sudden shout and cries. "Ivy!" I shouted and woke up from the dream.
*****Flashback ended*****
I shook my head, trying to get this dream out of my head. I muttered to myself, "What does she mean by that? She wants to go somewhere. I wonder where." I looked around the room and my eyes landed at the window. The sky looked so blue and peaceful today. I really feel like touching the sky.
The door suddenly opened and I saw Jeremy and Joshua. I tried to smile, forgetting the dream. I went towards them and asked, "So, what did you guys buy?" We talked while eating our snacks. All of a sudden, I heard a beep sound coming from Ivy's direction.
I turned around and saw Ivy's body going up and down. It looked like she was gasping for air. I quickly got up, went outside the room, calling for the nurses. "Nurse! Nurse! Please come and help my friend." I shouted for help. Two nurses came towards me and headed straight to Ivy's room. A few seconds later, a doctor came inside. The three of us watched from afar until one of the nurses asked us to wait outside.
My hands were shaking. I whispered, "Is this what she mean? Is this what my dream means?" I shook my head hard and trying to deny this. I tried to find a seat and calm myself. I looked at Jeremy and whispered to him, "I'm just going to the toilet and find a seat nearby." He nodded, asking, "Do you want me to walk you there?" I shook my head, putting on a weak smile and said, "It is okay. I can walk there by myself. You can wait for Ivy's parents to come here."
Then, I made my way to the toilet. My eyes started to become teary as I walked away from them. Everything looked wobbly and I lose my balance. The next thing I knew, the surrounding looked so dark and in pitch black. I panicked a little bit, trying to get away from this darkness. My head was spinning badly causing me to close my eyes slowly.
