Simula noong nakilala ko si Dawn ay naging bukas ako sa sariling emosiyon. I am not depriving myself to recognized my feelings anymore. Hindi ako naging madamot sa pagkilala sa sariling nararamdaman at iniisip.
He didn't teach me things... he encouraged me. I am aware that I'm not showing my real emotions to other people. Kung galit ako ay blangko lang ang pinapakita kong emosiyon... malamig na pakikitungo ang kadalasan nilang nakikita sa akin. But with him, I don't need to hide my emotions... some of it... He simply became the person of assurances to me.
His presence is making me uncomfortable, yet it somehow comforts me... I never imagined that being uncomfortable can ease my anxiety. His eyes are normally cold but whenever he stares at me, the deepness of his eyes emplaced me to a place where I don't have to pretend. His holds are full of sincerity and gentleness. His scent took away every negative thought as it diverted my attention to his manly scent... Everything about Dawn is pure goodness.
It looks like he was made to be my human confidence.
He saved me from the nightmare of pretending...
I mastered the art of pretending. I am a woman of pretensions. Everything about me is fake na kahit ako mismo ay nahihirapang alamin kung ano ba ang totoong ako. I say things I'm against with. I do things I'm not in favor of.
Solace: Thank you for today, Dawn :)
I looked at myself in the mirror. I finally visited a salon and dyed my hair into an ash blonde. Pinabawasan ko rin 'to hanggang leeg at pinalagyan ng curtain bangs. Sinamahan pa ako ni Dawn at naghintay siya sa akin nang apat na oras. Alam ko sa sarili ko na nababagot na siya kakahintay kanina kahit hindi n'ya aminin but I never saw boredom in his face nor heard complaining words from him. Kung hindi sa cellphone nakatuon ang atensiyon n'ya ay sa akin naman. He kept glancing at me like he can regain energy from it.
I took a mirror selfie and posted it on my Facebook account. I didn't put any caption on it. Wala pang limang minuto ay umabot na agad sa limang daan ang likes at isang daan ang comments.
Reni: Bagong buhok pero hindi ibig sabihin ay magbabagong buhay na. #Malandiparinsa2022 #whocares?stfubitch pero dapat tandaan na #waglalandikungmabahoangpepe #angkalandianaymaypinipilingamoy
Natawa ako nang mahina at umiling nalang sa comment ng kaibigan.
Shaira: You got even prettier! Can't wait to see you.
Yves: Looks good on you!
Jassy: Nasa bahay ka ba n'ya? 😉
Excel: Ang ganda po!
Tyra: So pretty. Btw, I miss you:<
Fatima: so pretty as always.
Christian: Ang ganda, kapatid.
Those are some of the positive comments. Maraming mga negatibong comments pero mas mangibabaw ang appreciative comments.
Troy: Patikim din.
Jude: Masarap😋
Rea: She's the girl behind the nudes, right? So gross.
Gracie: Siya ang malanding sinasabi nila? Maganda naman, pokpok nga lang.
Lau: Nasa loob ang kulo.
I only ignored them and didn't bother to delete their negative comments.
What an Insensitive mind they've got. That's totally slut shaming. Alam ko sa sarili ko na pokpok ako pero hindi ibig sabihin n'on ay magkakalat na sila sa sarili kong account! The audacity to promote woman empowerment yet degrade other women! Selective empowerment it is.
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Consolation In Distress (Consolation Series #1) COMPLETED
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