Consolation In Distress (Consolation Series #1) COMPLETED

Chapter 33

"Mommy, I have a question."

I lifted my eyes to my child who's now finished drinking her milk. I closed my laptop and made her sit on my lap.

I wiped the leftover milk on her lips, "What is it, baby?"

"I have a Daddy, right?"

I stiffened. Nanigas ang buong katawan ko nang marinig 'yon galing sa anak ko. She's only five years old and this is her first time asking about her father.

I cleared my throat and played with her fingers, "Yes, baby. You'll not be born if you don't have a d-daddy."

"Then, he loves me?"

Sumakit ang puso ko nang masilayan ang pag-asa sa mata n'ya.

"Of course, Daddy loves you so much."

She clapped, "Yehey! So can we meet him, Mommy?"

"Y-yes, soon. I promise."

My daughter deserves to know her father. Ayoko man na makita ulit ang lalaking naging mundo ko, para nalang sa anak ko. Hindi ko ipagkakait na makilala n'ya ang ama n'ya... Kahit pa he's now happy with his family. Even if he's already married to someone close to my heart.

"Go to sleep, baby. I will finish my work first then I'll follow you in our room, okay?"

"Okay po, Mommy. Goodnight. Mahal po kita nang sobra."

I smiled and kiss her cheeks, "Goodnight, baby. I love you, anak."

Nang makaalis si Twilight ay binuksan ko ulit ang laptop ko. I thought I'm going to do my pending work but I found myself searching for his name on my Facebook account. I deleted my old account five years ago that's why I created a new one. My account is private and I only have a few friends, ang mga kaibigan at katrabaho ko lang ang pinili kong maging friends sa Facebook.

A small smile crept across my lips when his account is set in public. His display photo is a picture of him riding a horse while his cover photo is a bible verse. His timeline is so holy. Halos lahat ng status at post n'ya ay kung hindi bible verse, motivational quotes naman. Nang mag sawa na kakabasa sa kan'yang mga status ay pumunta ako sa photos. I am expecting that his Facebook photos will be filled with motivational quotes but a familiar woman is all over his account. I scrolled down with my hands trembling so badly. Mas lalong nanikip ang dibdib ko nang may nakitang larawan n'ya na naka damit pangkasal.

I stalked Shaira and saw their wedding ceremony. She's wearing a beautiful wedding gown. They look sweet in every picture. Nakayakap lang si Dawn sa kan'yang bewang sa mga larawan o minsan ay magkahawak kamay sila. May prenup pictures din sila. They wore different outfits in different locations but the best one is when Dawn's background is dark while Shaira's background is dazzling. Dawn's palm is resting on her waist while her arms are around his neck. Sa itaas ng kanilang ulo ay may kalahating buwan at araw, the two have collided. Na parang pinapahiwatig na si Shaira ang araw sa madilim na buwan ni Dawn.

I also saw a post of Shaira where she's flexing their tattoos. Mabilis na tumulo ang luha ko sa pamilyar na tattoo. The letter S wasn't removed however, there's an additional R in it.

I bitterly smiled as I caressed my tattoo. I didn't remove it despite how painful his memory was to me. Wala akong planong tanggalin iyon dahil katulad ng tattoo na ito, naging parte na si Dawn ng aking buhay na imposibleng makalimutan. Masakit pero may halaga.

I stalked him again kahit na sobrang tinutusok ang aking puso sa sakit. I can't help myself but be proud of what he is now. At least, he's genuinely happy.

I can finally say to myself that I made the right decision. Hindi man ako ang dahilan ng mga ngiti n'ya, nagpapasalamat pa rin ako na masaya siya.

"I'm happy you found your new solace..." I whispered while scrolling on his Facebook account.