Nawalan ng kulay ang aking mukha sa narinig. I am two weeks pregnant!
"I'll be frank, Ms. Ramuro. Hindi ganoon kalakas ang kapit ng bata. You should watch what you eat and drink. Be healthier for your child."
Tulala akong tumango. I was left alone as the doctor talked to Reni. Biglang tumulo ang luha sa aking mata. It's a tear of happiness because it fell on my left eye.
"I-I'm sorry, baby... Mommy will take care of herself starting now," I murmured while caressing my stomach.
I've been reckless for the past weeks. Umiinom ako ng alak gabi gabi at nakakasinghot ng sigarilyo kada punta ko sa club. Kung hindi ko pa nalaman na buntis ako ay baka napatay ko na ang sarili kong anak.
The idea of losing my child because of my recklessness scares me. I'm not ready to bear a child but losing my child is scarier than anything else.
Siya ang magiging yaman ko sa lahat. Siya ang magiging saya ko sa lungkot ng aking nakaraan. Siya ang tanging panatag sa takot na haharapin. My child will be my consolation In distress.
"Hello, baby. Ninong Dada is here. Be strong for Mommy, okay?"
I laughed quietly. Ninong Dada, really? May naisip agad siyang itatawag ng anak ko sa kan'ya.
"I'm so excited, Ace! I will spoil her with makeup and dresses!"
"We don't know yet the gender of my baby, Reni."
"I'm sure she's a girl. Believe me."
Sana ay kambal. But I think that will be impossible. Wala kaming lahing kambal, si Dawn kaya? Does he have twin cousins? Speaking of him...
How am I going to tell him this news?
Tila nabasa ni Reni ang nasa isip ko, "Are you going to tell him?"
"H-he deserves to know the truth but I don't know how am I going to tell him?"
I'm not sure what will be his reaction. But one thing is for sure, he will be surprised. Baka isipin n'ya na gumagawa lang ako ng kuwento. I don't know. Kinakabahan ako baka hindi n'ya tanggapin ang anak ko.
"Don't worry about it. Ako ang bahala. For now, you should follow what the doctor said."
Kahit hindi n'ya sabihin ay gagawin ko talaga ang mabuti. I'll be a better mother for my baby.
Isang linggo na nang malaman kong buntis ako. I haven't told my family about it yet. I don't know how to tell them. They will surely be disappointed with me, again. Especially my father, given the fact that he is a pastor. Of course, he doesn't agree with teenage pregnancy. It will be another shame on his name. Ayokong dagdagan pa ang nagawa kong rumi sa pangalan n'ya.
I'm keeping this a secret because I won't let society insult or hurt my child. Kahit insultihin nila ako, ayos lang sa akin. But not this precious treasure. I will protect my baby at all costs. I will sacrifice everything just to provide her peace and happiness.
Isang linggo na rin nang tumigil akong uminom at imbes na sa club tumambay, sa bahay nila Reni nalang ako namalagi. Quitting alcohol was a hard challenge for me since it is my coping mechanism but every time I feel my stomach, it motivated me to be better. Hindi lang ang sarili ko ang inaalagan ko, may anak na ako. My baby's health is more important than my addiction.
"I want to go to the beach..."
I've been craving the sound of the waves, the flashes of fish, the sunrise, the cold atmosphere, and the sound of a bird flapping its wings. Pakiramdam ko ay makakapag isip ako kapag nasa dagat ako.
BINABASA MO ANG
Consolation In Distress (Consolation Series #1) COMPLETED
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