tw / / mention of rape
It's been two days since I last saw my boyfriend. Pagkatapos ng pagsigaw ko kay Dawn ay wala na akong narinig galing sa kan'ya. He must be really hurt by the words I uttered.
"Why? May problema ba kayo ni Dawn?"
Bumuga ako nang malalim na hininga, "Oo."
I can't find the courage to talk to him after what I did. My anger was irrational. Hindi n'ya alam ang dahilan at wala siyang ideya na sa simpleng jacket ay magiging agresibo ang reaction ko.
"Why won't you talk it out? It seems serious."
"N-nahihiya ako."
Yves' forehead creased, "Hiya? He's your boyfriend, Ace!"
I bit my lower lip. I'm embarrassed about what I did to him... at takot rin na baka marealized n'yang maling desisyon na mahalin ang isang tulad ko.
"I shouted at him. Nagalit ako sa kan'ya nang biglaan. He didn't know why I acted that way," I explained.
She nodded understandingly.
"That's why you should talk to him and apologize. Explain your side and make him understand it. Hindi puwedeng mahiya ka nalang habang siya ay nahihirapang isipin kung bakit mo iyon ginawa."
Am I ready to explain everything to him? Explaining my side means telling him what happened to my past unless I lie and make a different story.
"Walang patutunguhan ang hiya mo, Ace. You have to fix the problem as soon as possible. Kausapin mo siya. Mag-usap kayo."
"I'll try..."
"You should be or you will lose him."
That's when it hits me. I am in a relationship with him and I badly want this to work out. Gusto kong tumagal ang relationship namin. I can't afford to lose him.
Hindi ko dapat pinapairal ang hiya ko. I should make the first move to talk to him because it was my fault why we are in this situation. Ako ang nagalit na hindi pinapaalam sa kan'ya ang dahilan.
Solace: Where are you?
I texted him.
I waited for his reply for at least an hour but I haven't received anything yet. Bumusangot ang mukha ko at balak na i-message siya sa messenger nang makita kong may bago siyang upload na picture sa myday n'ya.
"Nakapag MyDay pero hindi ako ni-re-replyan," nagtatampo kong bulong sa sarili.
Mabigat sa loob kong pinindot ang profile n'ya.
"@my favorite place"
It was 30 minutes ago. How smart of him to answer me through this.
Mabilis akong nag ayos ng sarili at pumunta sa dagat kung saan nagsimula ang lahat.
"Am I selfish, Console?" I heard him asked his dog.
Hindi pa n'ya ako nakikita dahil nakatalikod siya sa akin. He was sitting on the wood of tree while facing the sea.
"Makasarili nga siguro ako... that's why everyone chose to leave me because I only think about myself. She's right, I am selfish."
I swallowed the lump in my throat. I slowly bent down to sit beside him.
"She's wrong. You're not selfish."
Nakita ko ang gulat sa kan'yang mukha nang makita ako sa tabi n'ya. His lips parted.
"I'm sorry."
Pinatong ko ang kaliwang palad sa kan'yang tuhod.
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