Consolation In Distress (Consolation Series #1) COMPLETED

Chapter 03

tw / / self-harm, R-18

I don't recommend you to read this chapter if you're going through something. This might trigger your mental health.

Pinilig ko ang ulo ko. I'm not definitely settling down. That's impossible! Settling down means being faithful to your partner and I can't do that. Hindi ko kayang maging faithful, I can be loyal but not faithful. And heck! I'm not in love with Stan. I'm only attracted to him and I lust for him a lot.

Being in love with someone is the last thing I'll do.

And besides, I don't want my lips to taste only one lip. Paniguradong magsasawa ako kung ganoon.

"I'll go ahead," Shai kissed my cheeks. I waved my hands at her as she got into their car

Stan told me to wait outside the school. Siya na raw ang maghahatid sa akin, as he should. Habang hinihintay siya ay may dumaang babae sa harapan ko. She stopped walking and stood up beside me.

Red hoodie and white pants.

I was taken aback. My insides were trembling in too much nervousness. Pilit kong kinakalma ang sarili ko pero mas lalo lang akong nanginginig. My hands were numb yet shaking and sweating. Ang noo ko ay napuno ng pawis. Bigla rin akong nilamig na parang binagsakan ako ng walong yelo at nagsimulang nanlabo ang paningin.

I want to move my body away from her but I was too stunned. My feet feel like a rock, it's too heavy! I was literally paralyzed.

"Miss? Are you okay?" the girl asked. She held my shoulder. My arms automatically shoved her away.

"N-no," nanginginig kong wika. My heart was pounding so fast.

Ang tiyan ko ay unti-unting sumasakit. My muscles became tenser.

She called me again but I was fast too run. Natigil lang ako when I bumped into someone.

"Babe!"

"Ahh! No! S-stop!" sigaw ko sa nanginginig na boses. I closed my eyes and covered my ears with trembling hands.

"Hey. This is Stan. Are you okay?"

Bigla ko siyang niyakap. Naramdaman ko ang kuryosidad sa kan'ya pero niyakap n'ya pa rin ako pabalik. He caressed my back that made me calm a bit.

My mind flew from the memories I want to forget. I closed my eyes firmly and took a deep breath. My heart is hyperventilating. Pakiramdam ko ay mawawalan ako ng malay ng wala sa oras.

Matagal ko pa siyang niyakap bago bumitaw.

"Okay ka lang?" he asked in a concerned voice.

"Y-yes."

I managed to smile despite the racing of my heartbeat.

"You looked scared."

Umiling ako, "I'm fine. I just want to hug you" palusot ko at niyakap ulit siya.

I sighed when he buy my explanation. My brain isn't functioning well, wala na akong ibang maisip na palusot. All I can think is about my worries... my past.

"Are you giving my reward now?" he asked, grinning, after I let go of him.

"Can I go home first?" matamlay kong tanong, "I'm tired. Baka hindi mo magustuhan ang performance ko."

He chuckled, "Fine. Tomorrow, then?"

I nodded.

I have trouble breathing while in the car that's why my chest is aching. It's suffocating me and I feel like I'm going crazy.