SUDDEN MARRIAGE

Twenty nine

We went home, then. We parted ways with Jaemin, Jeno and Jungwoo and now we're finally alone. Awkwardly alone together.

My eyes are swelling up and my lips had a small bruise because I was biting it too much, earlier.

On the other hand, Mark is showering while I was hiding myself under the heavy fabric of our comforter. I already took a shower because he told me to. It really helped in making me feel refreshed, though.

Somehow, I feel bad, sad and awkward right now. That's all. Really, nothing much.

Fuck, who am I kidding? I'm literally shaking in fear and I don't even know why!

The shower went off, which means he's going back and I have to fucking say something again.

Ohh, damn it!

Mark walked, his footsteps were nearing. His sighs were close. His body. His voice. His presence is nearing. Mark is here and I don't know how to act, what to do, and what to fucking say!

The bed subsided a bit which implied that he sat on it, literally beside me. I felt his arms pulling me and I could only halt my breathing and shut my eyes.

"Donghyuck..." He calls out in a soft voice. "I didn't come home for you to give me cold shoulders. I came home so we can talk."

I feel like crying again.

Mark removed the blanket off of me and gently pulled me up. I met the headboard as he faced me and locked me either way.

"Let's talk?"

I sob badly, before nodding my head like a child who was asked if I wanted some candy. This time, I need a conversation with him. I need him.

"What are you thinking about?" He asks in a very tiny deep voice, before brushing my hair back and wiping the sweat off my forehead. "Calm down, Donghyuck."

I can't. I can't even help the tears that are trailing down my cheeks. I can't control it, how much more to stop it?

"I-I'm... s-sorry..." I sob loudly and hide my face under my sleeves. "I d-don't want us... to f-fight anymore—"

"I want the explanation, not your apology."

I can't even talk properly and he wants an explanation? How would I tell him my thoughts clearly in this state of mine?

"Do you want me to leave now?" He hisses with furrowed eyebrows.

I was shocked and immediately pulled him back by his collar. I shook my head violently and cried even louder and sobbed madly.

"Ahh..." I weep my heart out as I chase my own breath. My chest is clenching in pain as well. "S-Stop... I'll talk... J-Just, give me a minute... P-Please? Don't leave me again."

Mark sighs. "Stop crying."

I can't. But I have to if that's what he wants. With all my might, I tried wiping my tears away and calming myself down. Thinking that if I do this, Mark will stay and love me again.

"I-I... was— out... Because—"

"Look at me when you talk..." He raised my head up and his curious wide eyes came into view. I wept again. "You're crying, again."

"Don't leave..." I hold his arms and tightly grip on him.

"Listen to me first, then..."

"Okay!" I exclaim but with sad sobs and swelling eyes.

"First of all, that day, I knew Lucas came back. When I went home without you anywhere in this house, I got so fucking damned. I called Jungwoo again just so he can help me seek you. When you came home crying and you weren't willing to tell me where you were, I got enraged. All I could ever think of is that you went out to meet Lucas." He starts off. His eyes got blurry and his lips started to quiver.