In the middle

24- please calm down

(Y/n pov)
*it's been two weeks since we found out I'm having a girl. It's also been two weeks since me and Timothee had our little moment and it didn't just stop after that one night. We've spent more time together then we did before and I didn't even know how that's possible*

*it was nice finally having someone to hold and love me. You never really know how much you need that until you don't have that.*

*you can fully tell I'm pregnant now so I've been staying at home. The way I like it. But the others insisted that I go out because staying in wasn't good for me, there not wrong but then There not right. The other day me Timothee, Florence and Tom went out for lunch. I wore a big coat like I do when I go out to cover the bump. We picked a small cafe just outside of London so there wouldn't be many people around. But I guess when your a famous for something you can't hide anymore. Your privacy is. Gone. Because before we knew it. This happened*

"Y/n Holland pregnant with Timothee Chalamets baby"
Y/n: no no no this can't be happening
FP: what's happened
Y/n: they know.
TC: they know what? Y/n what's going on?
Y/n: this. Look. They know I'm pregnant.
FP: oh god.
Y/n: I can't believe it.

*just when you think everything is going well your life crumbles right in front of you. You can see it happening but you can't stop it*
TC: okay. They might not even look at the news
Y:/n: they will look. It's going to be everywhere!
FP: y/n please calm down
Y/n: why is no one else freaking out about this! What are they going to do! They said it's your baby. It's not! Now Sebastian and Chris are going to think it's yours. It's not!
TC: you don't think I know that
Y/n: you did this
TC: what?
Y/n: you were never happy about the choices I made
TC: all I have done is supported you in all this. In all your Work
FP: y/n don't blame Timothee. If anything it's you who put this on yourself
Y/n: ...yeah. Thanks I know.
FP: y/n wait that's not what I meant
Y/n: but it is. Y/n if you wasn't such a slut then none of this would of happened. I hear it everyday! I know I did this! And I guess I just made it a lot worse by fucking Timothee.
TC: y/n
Y/n: I can't do this anymore. Everything I do is wrong! Everything I say comes back at me. I'm happy and then im sad and that's not just being pregnant thanks my life. It was stupid and dull then Sebastian happened I was happy then it got better with Chris then boom back to being depressed
FP: y/n please
Y/n: slowly getting happy finding out I have a purpose in life with this baby and now everyone is going to know! Sebastian and Chris are going to know with a thousand miles between us. There going to be thinking about everything that's not true.

*I don't know where all that came from*
TC: look it's around ten in the morning for them why don't you call them
Y/n: you think I can do this over the phone! I'm going to my room. Don't follow me.
*and just like that. I'm alone in my room with my thoughts which is never a good thing.*

*the thing I hate the most is that they are all right but my mind just can't seem to do the right thing. I'm not going to be that person by calling Sebastian and Chris to tell them that one of them is actually the father.*