i lost myself.

26: Mistakes

Chapter 26

Part 6

(A/N: here's the questions you've been waiting for...)

TW: Death of a love one, mention of dead b*dy

I'll put a warning so you know what part not to read, please read on ur own risk! If you are uncomfortable with what's mentioned please skip to the next paragraph!

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Ryder sat in his assigned hospital room, staring at the wall letting his thoughts spread throughout his mind. He regreted the things he's done, ending Eli's life, endangering Leslie's because he wanted her for himself.

He knew that Leslie was too out of his league for him, and she wouldn't wanna be with a murderer like himself. Ryder knew that Jahseh was the guy for her. Ryder hated himself, for murdering someone who made Les happy and his best friend, and paring up with a girl who had bad intentions, only to be with  Leslie.

"I'm so stupid.." He whispered to himself.

"Why did I think she had good intentions and wouldn't hurt Leslie. but she obviously paid someone to hit the car" He face palmed himself.

"I can't live like this, knowing that I've murdered an innocent man, and making the girl I loved very much upset"

He gripped his bed sheets and looked down, he hated himself, every last bit of him he hated. If he didn't agree to that bitch, Kaylen. Leslie wouldn't be in a coma right now. The only thing he wanted was to make himself better, he wanted to owe the months, years whatever in jail from the murder he's done.

He looked back up, to the wall and let his thoughts go furthermore then what they've done. He wish we could say sorry to Leslie, from all the stuff he made her go through. All of the pain and suffering Leslie been through, was all because of him, and he hated himself for it all.

"So fucking stupid.. So fucking stupid, so fucking stupid" his thoughts yelled at him.

He let out a sigh and ungripped the sheets, letting his thoughts go wild once again, until they were intrupped by a knock on the door. "Come in.." He said.

The door opened and it revealed a officer, he walked in and looked at Ryder. "Are you Ryder, perhaps?" He asked, making Ryder nod.

"Yes?" He asked.

I have a question, that I hope you have the answer to, it'll help me out a lot." he asked.

"Do you somehow know the person who told, that guy to hit you and the passenger?" He asked.

"Yeah, her names Kaylen Pris" he said, not regretting telling him, she deserves to be in prison just like him.

" And..I have something to tell you too.." He said, looking at the officer with a upset look, but knowing that it's the right thing to do..

Ryder was at a party, enjoying his time and getting complete wasted, he was sitting at the couch that was on the side of the big dance floor, taking a sip of his beer in his hand, and watching everyone having the time of their lives, when someone caught his eye. Leslie Evans.

The girl he had a crush on forever, he hated seeing other men look at her or even make physical contact with her. He looked to who she was talking to, and of course it was his best friend, a guy he saw as a brother.

It angered him even more, seeing them kiss or be lovey to each other, he sat there wishing that it was him and not his best friend, he was jealous. Very jealous. He sat there watching his crush and best friend talking, enjoying each other's company. He gripped his can even harder, making the undrinking liquid to fall onto him. He remembered the thing and smirked.