i lost myself.

4

three week laters.

(A/N FORGET ABOUT THE MESSAGES WITH 'DAD')

I'm finally aloud in the school again. Unfortunately, this week is the last in cali. I convinced my aunt for liv to come move with us. I cannot be away from that girl, she helps me with the nightmares I get ever so often. Without her I probably wouldn't be here.

Anyways, I currently getting ready for my first day back to hell. I took a shower, lotioned my body, and brushed my hair. I went to my closet and grabbed this outfit:

I grabbed a heart necklace, a necklace with my name on it, and some rings. I put my socks and shoes on, and grabbed my phone and charger.

I headed downstairs, "morning les" my mother said. "Morning" I said grabbed some bread and some avocado spread. I put the bread in the toaster. I waited a minute and grabbed my toast and spread some avocado on it. "I'm off to school" I sighed. I ate the toast and headed to the front door, I grabbed my keys and bookbag. I'm lowkey still mad at my mother, for sending me away. But i know shes just trying to make better choices for me. I know I'm better off leaving cali, here just brings back some many bad memories..I don't wanna think about anymore.

I unlocked my door and got inside, I threw my backpack in my back seat and started the car. I backed out and headed to school. Supposedly liv is asking her parents to come with me to Florida. Her mother is like a second mother to me. And her dad is like a father I never had. Her mom and my mom, went to school together just like us today.

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Liv's pov

Its the day Leslie finally comes back to school. I'm glad she is, don't have to hear Chelsea annoying ass. One thing she doesn't know is that our "friend" Kaylen, has moved on to us and is now I guess you can call friends with our enemies Chelsea. Anyways next week is when Leslie moves to Florida.

I don't blame her mother, Leslie deserves to live a happy life. She's been through enough. Two years ago, she lost her father from cancer, and last year she lost the love of her life, Eli. She loved that man. I could tell, every time he's around she smiles like crazy. The way she talks about him. But now...its just fake smiles, and i hate it. i hope moving to Flordia i can finally see that smile again. anyways i took a shower and got ready for school. I put my hair in a messy bun, and changed into some comfy clothes. Then i went downstairs.

"morning Liv" my mom said, i said good morning and got some cereal. "so..u-uh, i wanted to ask you both something.." i said. my mom and dad both looked at me, waiting for me to say something. "so..Next week Leslie is supposed to be moving to Flordia..with her aunt. S-so..i was wondering if i could possibly..go with her..you know to be with her. To always make sure she's alright" i said looking down. I feel like they're going to say no.. "yes, you can go..only if your dad agrees." my mom said. I looked up at my dad waiting for him to say something. "I agree..Les really does need you there" he said smiling. I finished eating my cereal and put it the sink. "thanks guys" i said before heading to the door.

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Leslie's POV (school)

It's currently 3rd period. Kaylen and I are sitting in the far back. Our teacher is giving us a "free day" for some reason.

"message from Jah"

Jah: Hey Les!

Me: Hey

Jah: Finally back at school?

Me: Yeah..sadly ☹️ but this is my last week here..so

Jah: Last week?

Me: yeah..my mom decided it'd be best for me to move to flordia with my aunt.

Jah: Thats where i live! we should hang out!

Me: Yeahh, my friend is moving with me

Jah: I can bring mine with us, So they he/she feels left out.

Me: Okay, well then see you later Mr. Onfroy

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"Are you talking to him again?" liv asked. i shook my head slowly. "He lives in flordia..so we will hang out with him.." i said "Oou" she said. i rolled my eyes and got up from the seat, since the bell rung.

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Lunch time (6th period)

It's finally lunch time. We decided to go to taco bell for lunch today. We sat by the window and sat in front of another. "So then i'll be left out that day huh?" liv said. i shook my head no "His friend is coming with us. He's another rapper." she nodded.

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Time skipped because i'm lazy

Today is Friday, I said my last goodbyes to my teachers and some of my classmates that I was kinda cool with. This morning i went to Eli's grave for the last time. Now i'm currently laying on my bed listening to some of Jahseh's music. Tomorrow Liv and I have to leave by 7am. My aunt already signed us up for school over there, Jahseh's school.

Revenge

I think I, I think I finally

Found a way to forgive myselfFrom mistakes I made in the pastI think that's the first step, right?You agree?

I've dug two graves for us, my dear

Can't pretend that I was perfect, leaving you in fearOh man, what a world, the things I hearIf I could act on my revenge, then, oh, would I?Some kill, some steal, some break your heartAnd you thought that I would let it go, and let you walkWell, broken hearts break bones, so break up fastAnd I don't wanna let it go, so in my grave I'll rotI've dug two graves for us, my dearCan't pretend that I was perfect, leaving you in fearOh man, what a world, the things I hearIf I could act on my revenge, then, oh, would I?Some kill, some steal, some break your heartAnd you thought that I would let it go and let you walkWell, broken hearts break bones, so break up fastAnd I don't wanna let it go, so in my grave I'll rot

His voice played lowly through out my room, while i laid on my bed. I can't believe this is it, Tomorrow i'll no longer be in Cali.. I sighed...and fell asleep.

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1084 wordss, I would of made it longer but i'm kinda got writers block for this chapter. Next chapter will be when she is moving to Flordia. From that Jahseh and Stoke will be in this book. Comment or Message me any ideas for the future chapters!! hope you enjoyedd

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