i lost myself.

11: Part 1

Chapter 11

(A/N: Don't listen to the song yet!)

I jumped up with heavy breathing..had another bad dream.

I started shaking..I heard my door slam open and revealed my best friend..liv

"Its ight...just breathe" she said holding me. I kept shaking and tears fall down.

I heard her dial a number..but didn't really care who, "Hey..could u come over..les had another nightmare.."

-Hour later-

I was laying on my bed listening to j ahsehs music..until I heard his soft voice. "Hey.." I felt him get into my bed and hold me. I turned around so I was facing his chest.

I felt a tear falling from my cheek. "Liv called you?" I said. "Yeah.."

It's been awhile since I had those nightmares..I usually pop some xans..but I can't with jahseh here..

"Want me to get you some food and maybe some snacks..and I'll stay and we can watch movies" he asked. I thought about it and said sure.

I watched him leave and I let out a sigh..I feel honestly like I'm cheating..

I got up slowly and walked into my bathroom, I looked into the mirror..and saw eli smiling, I turned around and....nobody was there..

I turned back around and opened the mirror that reveal the xans.. I popped 3 or 4 in my mouth and turned on the faucet and took a drink.. I closed my eyes and swallowed them.

I went under my counters and grabbed a blunt, I light it and started doing my thing..

2 hours later

After hitting the blunt for 2 hours..everything started to go black..

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Jahseh's POV

I got back from getting Leslie some taco bell and some snacks so we can watch movies later on. I got out my car and grabbed the bags, I opened the door and took my shoes off and headed to Leslie's room.

I opened the door slowly and smelt weed..I set the food on the floor and noticed the bathroom door was opened..and it revealed leslie on the ground..

"Leslie?!" I said running to her. I checked her pulse..and there was no pulse..I noticed there was a empty bottle that looked like pills..I picked it up and read "xans". I got my phone and dialed 911.

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At hospital

The ambulance arrived and brought her to the hospital. I'm sitting in the waiting room with Liv,trippie,ski and their aunt, her aunt is on the phone with her mom, and we are all sitting here waiting for the results..

"So you said that there was xans..?" Trippie said. I nodded my head looking down. The doctor started walking our way.

Trippie and I stood up, "she's alright..I'd like to ask a relative or a close friend some questions.."

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Trippie's POV

"I'm her cousin.." I said. He nodded and told me to follow him. "Okay.."

-- Minute later --

He asked me questions about her..and told me to take away all sharp stuff and any kind of medicine that she could take to overdose..

I nodded and went back to where everyone was..

I felt stupid for not watching over my cousin..she's been through so much..I wish I could do everything in my power to make her live a better life..she lost the love of her life and her father she cared so much about..