i lost myself.

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Tuesday December 2nd

Its finally eli birthday. I left early to visit his grave. I'm wearing his hoodie and some sweats. I parked my car and took my keys out, i opened the door and went to his grave.

"H-hey..eli" i bend down and touched his grave. "Happy birthday baby..I wish I could see you..and hug you.." I felt a tear fall. "W-why did you have to go..so early.." "Its so hard..not seeing you..hearing your voice...cuddling you.." I sighed.. "I want you to know...that i will always love you...no matter what. You'll always be in my heart..." I touched his grave for the last time, I got up and went to my car. I opened the door and got inside and started the car, I backed up and headed to school. I always visit his grave on his birthday, and sometimes mine.

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At school

I finally arrived at school, i parked my car and grabbed my bag. I got out of the car and closed the door and locked. I headed to the front door of my school. I went to my locker and grabbed my stuff. "Aw, look who it is Leslie, hey leslie how's eli?" "Oh right..he's gone." She laughed. "He never loved you that's why he left you he must of set it up, had someone shot em so he can get away from yo ugly ass." She giggled. She's really testing me right now. She moved over to me and started touching eli's old locker. I grabbed her arm before she could even touch it, I slammed her into the locker and chocked her. "don't talk about eli like that. Its not my fault he rejected you, because he had me!" I punched her until her nose bled. I Kept punching and punching a few times, slammed her harder into the locker, and continued to punch her until I heard a crack, that didn't stop me, she deserved this. "MISS. SAINTOS! PUT HER DOWN" I dropped her. "MY OFFICE!" I said one last thing to her. "Say one more thing about me and eli i will punch your fucking head until it falls of your damn body" I said before entering the principals office.

"What on earth! Has happened to you!" he yelled "well, Mr.Green she had the nerve to talk about eli." He shook his head "I'm going to have to suspend you. Grab your things and exit my building at once!" Without no hesitation I got up and headed to my locker. I grabbed my bookbag and my keys and headed outside the school. Don't have to tell me twice I said. I went to my car and unlocked the door and got in. I started the car and drove out of the schools parking lot. She fuckin deserved that shit. I stopped at a red light and checked my phone.

"Ding"

"Message from dad♥"

I clicked on the notification.

Dad♥

Dad:Hey leslie, How are you?

Me: Hey dad. I'm okay.

Dad: You sure?..Don't you know what day it is?

Me: Yes..I know what day it is..I got to go..Talk to you later.

The light turned green, and I drove. Not even an hour later i pulled into my drive way. My mom isn't home because she's at work. I grabbed my stuff and locked my doors. I went to the front door and unlocked it, I went straight to my room and closed the door.

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Hour later

I fell asleep on my bed, I got up an hour ago and watch something on Netflix. I went through Instagram for alittle bit. "Buzz" I checked my phone.