Louder than bombs, Jinx x oc fem reader

17. Tell me that you love me⚠

A/N: soo I decided to make Y/N a switch 🤪 anYGaY enjoy this God forbidden thingy~

⚠ SMUT

Jinxs pov.

"She's a distraction for you"

Both of my knees were curled up into my chest as I hugged them tightly, watching as Silco patted the cotton powder puff onto his creepy eye. A part of me boiled with anger at his words, yet, not a single word leaves my lips.

He finally looks at me, stares for a few seconds, and begins talking again," you would never work out anyway", Silcos tone got soft all of a sudden. For a few more seconds he stays quiet, then looks up and down at me," that girl will betray you," his hand now strokes mine gently and I look up at him, not bothering to hide the sadness in my face," you know it, Jinx, it's only you and me".

Hearing him saying that felt like a shot in the heart. I loved being near Y/N, she made me feel wanted and not alone anymore. Mylo was quiet most of the time when Im with her too. I craved her love and needed to be with her wherever she would go. Even not having her by my side right now made my body ache uncomfortably.

"No, you're wrong", my voice came out trembling, almost as if I was trying to convince myself. A nervous giggle left my lips," she likes me, and I like her-"

The loud sound of Silco slamming his palm onto the table surface beside me made the papers fly and I flinch," she doesn't like you!"

My eyes went wide as I bit my bottom lip, trying to fight the tears that wanted to come out so bad.
I felt ashamed, that I told him something like that and he denied it. Silco yelled at me, he was mad and I fucked something up again, Im the problem.

A burning sensation flamed in my chest as it got tighter and a lump in my throat hurt. I just blinked a few times, getting myself back together, and as soon as I calmed down, my hands pushed me off the table, feet carrying me out of his office without a word.

Silco was angry, which means he doesn't want to see me right now, maybe even hated me. The only thing that I could think of was Y/N. I know that once I get to her I'll feel much better. In my mind, I began wandering around every image of her cuddling with me. Although the idea of her sleeping with some other girl and especially a topsider hasn't left my head since this morning.

A spark of joy exploded in my chest with the excitement to see her and be with her. I turned around the corner, knowing where she might be right now. Of course, she would be with Sevika.
My eyes rolled almost over dramatically and I decided to listen to their conversation. One eavesdrop won't hurt.

The first thing I heard was Sevika's harsh words as I immediately knew who she was talking about," She's fucked up in the head". It was nothing new to me and I huffed out in annoyance, waiting for Y/N to say something, and when she did I wasn't expecting that, yet, I wasn't surprised.

"Yeah, you're right" Y/N answered quietly.

Pain shuddered through me and I couldn't stop repeating her words over and over in my head. Silco was right, she didn't like me. She didn't love me.

"I knew this would happen, I told you!", Mylo yelled from behind my shoulder, not scaring me, but forcing pain to be stronger.

My brows crashed together hard as my mind ran through all the memories Y/N and I had made," she's... No. You're wrong. All of you are wrong." I paused for a moment, taking a deep breath in," she's just... Just doesn't know how to show love".

Once again a nervous giggle escaped my mouth while I tried to find every single explanation for this situation," I like her and that means she likes me too".