Close to not enough - Jensen Ackles Fanfic

20º Chapter

I was finally happy with what I was looking at in the mirror.

At least my makeup was a little better after crying my eyes out, and I was able to conceal that I've been actually crying.

I made my way back to the end of the aisle as fast as I could.

Jared was standing there, his eyes scanning the room for a couple of seconds. I knew that he couldn't really bring himself to care about anyone in this room except for his beautiful bride that was nowhere to be seen.

I was smiling at him, trying to make some funny faces to get him to laugh, when my attention was brought up to the door of the barn.

My mouth went dry as soon as my eyes landed on the green eyed man, but I don't think that he saw me because his eyes didn't land on me but on his nervous best friend.

I couldn't stop my eyes from tracing slowly on his perfect blue suit, just like I couldn't stop looking when I saw that his hand was holding another.

Her red hair was perfectly composed just like her red dress that really brings out the brown color of her eyes and fuck... she's even more beautiful than in the pictures I saw online.

He walked her to one of the rows and let her sit in one of the chairs next to his parents that had arrived early in the morning.

I am fine.

My heart was beating like crazy inside my chest, but it wasn't till I saw him giving her a quick kiss on the lips that I felt my whole body stop for a second there.

I tried to look away from them but the only person that I could look at the moment was Jared who had an apologetic smile on his face at the moment.

"I'm so...so sorry, Claire!" — Jared whispered, trying to somehow get my attention to where it hurts the most to look at. I can't bring myself to be mad at him, not right now, and I'm not going to be sad either. I have a lot of time to be sad once this day is over, but now it's not the time.

"It's fine... we can talk about this some other day, but right now, let's get you married!" — I said, smiling at him the best way I could, even if I feel like my heart is going to explode into a million pieces at any second.

I don't know why, but I knew a panicked look when I saw one, and that was exactly the way that Jensen expression went when his green eyes finally landed on me for the first time today. He looked panicked.

If it was any other occasion or day, I would probably just look the other way and pretend that I didn't see him or just ignore his presence. Today was no normal day, this was, after all, my two best friend's wedding and I won't be the one to ruined it for the world.

I tried to grow some balls at that moment, and apparently I really managed it because I could bring myself to smile at Jensen.

At least this way, I can make this whole situation a little less awkward or hard for the both of us.

The room went completely silent when the music started, alerting everyone of Gen's arrival, and I knew I was going to cry.

I just didn't know that I would cry so much, because she was beautiful, and the ceremony was just perfect.

I wasn't the only one that cried, even Jared cried, and I couldn't be more happy for the both of them.

I ended up sitting at the table with them and that was great except for the fact that Jensen and his girlfriend were there too and Gen's cousin didn't stop hitting on me for even a second, and I was starting to get a little pissed at his attitude during the entire dinner.