Close to not enough - Jensen Ackles Fanfic

49º Chapter

Jared said something about Gen probably still being upstairs because she texted him a couple of minutes ago saying that Jensen was currently the one that was watching the kids.

That should make me nervous, he can probably see from a mile away the similarities between him and Summer. Or maybe he is so damn unaware of his surroundings that he doesn't even notice what is right in front of his eyes.

I was about to turn the corner where the hall is divided with the kitchen when I heard two voices coming from there.

Maybe I'm being too nosy, but I can't really stop myself when I hear two people that I don't really recognize the voice, fighting in the house I live in.

But I found out too soon that sometimes it's better if we don't stick our noses where it doesn't belong. The things that I was about to hear, no one should have to hear something like this, no one.

"I don't care about what you do, Danneel! I paid you to do an abortion five years ago, and you were a stupid, spoiled girl for not doing what I told you to." — I could recognize this voice anywhere I went, I heard him yelling "cut" too many times to ever forget how his voice sounds, but Danneel... I just hope this isn't the same, Danneel. — "You can say whatever you want, but Justice is not my daughter, and she will never be. She's your problem to fix."

Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck... What should a person with the information that I have now should do? Tell someone? Run for my life because I might end up dead? Should I tell Jensen?

Obviously that's the worst idea on the list of the worst ideas that ever crossed my mind, but somehow my feet started to move really slowly to the backdoor of the house. The door that leads to the backyard where Jensen is currently at.

I felt a hand grabbing my arm lightly but at least that made my body finally stop acting in his own way which I'm so thankful for right now.

"Hey... Where are you going?" — Gen, the one person that I need right now, is finally standing right in front of me and stopping me from doing the most stupid thing I ever thought about doing in my whole life. I actually didn't answer her, I just grabbed her hand and pulled her as fast as I could upstairs, where her room was located. — "What's wrong, Claire? You're scaring me..." — I was still so much in shock that I couldn't really speak a word until I had the door securely closed behind me.

"Well... I really have to tell you something, ok? Like, something big." — I was still not sure about if I should tell her what I've just heard downstairs, but honestly... I'm not even sure if I can get those words past my mouth.

"Well... I'm waiting." — She was looking at me with that bitch face that I know too damn well. She perfectly knows what I'm about to tell her, but she will make me go through hell just to tell her what she already knows. It's her little victory after five years of listening to myself lying to her with all the teeth I have in my mouth.

"First... I really want to say how sorry I am for lying, especially to you Gen. You didn't deserve it at all... You were here, all the time. You heard me cry myself to sleep, you heard me laugh, you supported me when I needed you... You didn't deserve to be lied to for five years, and for that I'm so sorry." — She hasn't looked at me since she took a seat on the king-size bed, she kept her eyes on her hands that were playing with the end of her denim skirt. She only took her eyes away from her little play thing when I stopped talking, and she realized that it was all that I had to say. That wasn't enough for her, tho, she wants me to say it... the whole thing, word by fucking word. — "Fuck Gen... Really?" — I asked, not really believing that she wanted me to go that far.

I walked slowly in her direction and let my body fall right next to hers.

I could see in the way that she avoided my eyes on hers that she was hurt, and she has every right to be. If it was the other way around I would probably throw a complete tantrum about how lying is bad, and she should trust me more, so honestly? This is not so bad, maybe it will take some weight out of my shoulder.

"Okay, fine! Jensen, is Summer's father ok?" — I said, seeing her looking at me from the corner of her eyes, which automatically made me roll mine. — "Let's skip the part where you pretend that you didn't know, ok? If Jared figured it out, then you were the whole brain behind that situation, he told me that much." — I let my body fall flat on the mattress, letting my back hit the soft comforter under me.

"He told you? Then good, because I have something that he made me promise to tell you only when he was present, but since he has such a big mouth... I'll tell you alone." — Now, this is something that is rare to see. Genevieve is actually going to do something that she promised Jared to do with him? She's pissed, but not 'I'm going to murder him' kind of pissed... I have seen her like this a couple of times, this kind of pissed only happened two times...shit. — "I'm pregnant..."

I saw the smile on her lips starting to grow, probably at the same speed that mine was growing too.

I can't believe she's pregnant again, after her last pregnancy, Austin's pregnancy, she said that she didn't want any more kids. Excused to say that it was a really hard pregnancy with a lot of scares in between... Maybe that's why I feel the way I feel about Austin, maybe he is our little piece of heaven and I just have to protect him from everything no matter what.

My best friend is pregnant again, and I couldn't be more happy for her, for them. I actually let out a small scream of joy, and she joined me, just like we did when she found out she was pregnant with Austin.

"Oh my god, Jesus Christ, Gen! I'm so, so happy for you!" — I needed to hug her tight as I spoke, but something in the deep part of my mind kept banging inside my brain, making me sigh. I know that I can't keep a secret like this, not again, especially without telling her. — "Wait... I'm sorry for ruining this moment, but I have to tell you something, and please take a seat. You're pregnant, and I don't want to be the reason for that baby to come a more crazy than he is going to be already since you're the mother." — I grabbed her arms, making her gently sit on the bed right in front of me.

"I was walking past the kitchen when I heard something. Something big... I heard this conversation between Danneel and Joseph... Justice is not Jensen's daughter." — I was too occupied trying to decipher her expression in front of me that I didn't hear the door behind us being open. Only when I heard the voice, I knew I screwed up.

"What?" — It could've been worse, it could be Jensen... but it's just Jared, a very shocked and pale Jared, but at least it's him.