Close to not enough - Jensen Ackles Fanfic

35º Chapter

I was trying the best that I could to not panic as my eyes watched closely as Gen and Jared invaded my apartment without many words. Looking around the house, everything looked totally normal except for the fact that my kitchen counter is full of half cut vegetables and Jensen is currently getting out of my bathroom. His hands making small and discreet gestures about not finding his boxers anywhere.

"What are you guys doing here?" — I tried not to sound annoyed or even suspicious, but it wasn't usual for them to show up without calling first, and today of all days was the worst day they could show up unannounced.

"Oh you know, we were passing by, and I remembered how much you love Chinese food, so we wanted to have a small dinner with you." — Gen started to take the boxes out of the white bag, and it smelled amazing. Filling the entire living room and making my mouth start to water. — "Hey Jensen!" — She was excited about seeing him. Gen hasn't been around the set so much lately because of the final touches she was giving to their new house back in Austin, so she hasn't seen Jay in quite a while now.

"Hey Gen!" — Jensen said, showing just the same amount of excitement about seeing her as she did about him. He took a large step in her direction, giving a small kiss on her cheek.

"Hey bro, what are you doing here?" — Jared was the one to finally ask the big question, the one that I'm hoping so much that Jensen can lie about, but from the look on his face he is totally blocked this time.

"Well I..." — He started, but I could see the panic starting to show up on his features about a second later because his voice just didn't want to do the best thing he could do. For God's sake, he is an actor, he lies for a living, but under pressure he might be the worst liar that is out there in the world.

"Oh, you know, Jensen here was having a lot of questions about the new script I sent him this past week, so I asked him to come by, so I could answer every question he had." — I got closer to the table, and I'm really trying to keep my eyes away from the intense staring that is currently burning my skin, but as soon as I did, I regretted it a second after.

Jensen had this still panicked but relieved look on his face while Gen was frowning her eyebrows at me. Like she knew I was lying from the very beginning, but that didn't stop me from keeping up with a smile on my face like I just said the very and best truth.

"Oh, is that right?" — She asked, and something told me in that same very moment that somehow I've fucked up in my lie somewhere along the way, maybe I was smiling too much. — "So... Dean is having a sex scene somewhere?" — This time, her attention was totally and completely on Jensen, who once again had his mouth slightly open, like his voice was betraying him and not responding to his commands to speak.

"What?" — Finally he knew how to speak, finally his voice was heard, but unfortunately for me and for him, neither of our friends decided to stop the questions there.

"It's a fantastic question, Gen! If Dean is getting a sex scene on the show, that would explain Jensen's boxers right there in the corner." — Jared, that fucking big moose and his big fucking mouth spoke and this time I knew that as much as we knew how to lie, we can't run away from this anymore. We have been caught, and now we have to face the consequences of the mess we made.

"Fuck..." — Was all that I could get out from my lips because right now my head and my brain are a total mess of lies and truths and I don't really know which one of them I should tell. Should I keep lying to them and just get another lame excuse, or should I tell the truth and maybe send whatever me and Jensen have going on down the drain and maybe our friendship with the couple too?

"What the hell do you both have on your minds?" — Gen didn't sound happy at all, actually she sounded so pissed that for the first time in so many years of friendship I'm actually afraid that she might end our friendship right here and right now.

"It's my fault, ok? Don't even for a minute blame Claire for this." — Jensen didn't hesitate one second before starting to defend me, but honestly the four of us know that if this is anyone's fault it is mine really. I was the one that never forgot about him and still loved him even after knowing that he had a fiancée. I was the one that made a move on him at the party, after all, not that they knew about that.

"I don't really care whose fault it is... Why didn't you tell us?" — Gen asked, this time even if I searched really deep inside my mind I couldn't really find one good reason for not telling her.

Gen was my best friend for as long as I can remember being a person, and she never failed me once since then, and Jared was just the amazing friend he is. They would never end their friendship with us because of this, and they would probably help us.

There wasn't one good reason for not having told them before, maybe just one.

"Because we know it's fucking wrong, ok?" — That sentence burst out of my mouth before I could really stop it. For a second I thought that Jensen might be pissed at me because I just described our situation as wrong, but in the end, it really is.

"Maybe it is..." — Jared was the one to speak, looking at me with this big green and sad eyes like he understood exactly the thoughts that are getting inside my mind at this very moment. I can't stop my body from taking a sit on the couch because if I didn't, my legs would probably lose all the strength to keep my body up. — "Yeah... perhaps you're right and this is wrong and messed up, Claire. But you know what? It was about damn fucking time." — My eyes went wide as I heard his words because for a second I didn't realize if what I was hearing was just a fruit of my imagination. As I look up to the man that I call now my best friend, he had this big playful smile on his lips, making me realize that he really just said what he said.

I was still sitting on my spot. My mouth completely dry and not able to form a single word, as the couple in the room just started to smile and get the food ready for the four of us to eat. My eyes starter to count the containers of the food that they have brought and with that, I knew then, that they already knew that Jensen would be here somehow.