why? // ateez au

HOPEFUL.

Don't you find it funny how hope can turn into our biggest enemy? 

It's like they say, "too much hope can be worse than fear".

For months I waited patiently for the time at which all my pain will finally come to an end, but that desire for a happy ending? 

It only broke me more. Maybe even my friends, too. I was just so caught up in the fantasy of it all that I truly forgot what reality is.

Looking at the kids, laughing and giggling whilst they run through the corridor of the school I now own makes me wonder to myself,

at what point did I lose it all?

When my brother went to jail? When Yunho died? 

I couldn't tell you.

The belief that maybe, just maybe, everything would be okay again, clouded any kind of real memories. 

There could be such thing as 'utopia', 

but still, it'd be a fool's paradise.

- SH.