why? // ateez au

TRAPPED.

I knew the feeling of being trapped a little too well. Trapped in your own feelings, your own emotions, and not even being allowed to release them.

Trapped in the thoughts of others; the expectations they have for you and your obligation to please them, it feels like your constantly suffocating. 

I, at the age of 17, got kicked out by my own father, became homeless for years, simply for not being the person he wanted to be, for not becoming that emotionless, robotic lawyer. 

I believe he never truly loved me. Maybe that's why I envied Yunho a little, the fact he was able to have this bright life without any trouble with family, friends, or anyone. 

He was bright himself, so deserving of love, but god was resentful. 

I'm sorry, Yunho. 

I'm so sorry.

- HJ.